hmmm, back on track..
Sunday, August 04, 2013
So I was going well for a while there, and then the busy-ness of work kicked in and here I am, more than 3 weeks later, no blogging, no workouts, no smart eating.. Then I see a post on Facebook about getting back on track. So I go looking for the challenge, and I find an article challenging me to pinpoint the "weaknesses in my program," and challenging me to make those "minor" changes that I need to get me back on track.
Well, after I stopped laughing, and then crying, about how un-minor my adjustments would have to be, I just started thinking about where I am, how I got here, and how I really can't afford to wait much longer to start to try to change all this.
Where I am is at an all time weight high, with an all time low level of exercise, energy and motivation. My body is woefully incapable of doing much that it could do not all that long ago, and that makes the exercise part of the "program" I know I need all that much more difficult. As far as the eating is concerned, interestingly that part seems to be the most "controllable" part of things for me right now. Though I am hardly in control, I continue to eat well for most of the day most days, and have my challenge at the end of the day.
One line in the article about the get back on track challenge that struck me is the line that says: remember how good you feel when you've had a day in which you have done it right: exercised, eaten well and stayed within your calorie range. That makes me nostalgic for a day like that. I do remember and I ache to have a day like that.
So here I am, thinking, well, there is only one person who can give you a day like that, and that is you, Tina. And then I think about the fact that this month is another busy month, but one which will culminate with a vacation..do I want to be doing this during my vacation? The alternative to doing this on my vacation is NOT doing it, and honestly, I worry about whether my body would otherwise be able to take the trek up and down the stairs to get to the beach..and with my famously weak bladder, if I have to rush up to the cottage to get to the bathroom, will I make it?
Thus, here I am, on Sunday, August 4, concluding that not only is this in issue of WANTING to do it, but also an issue of HAVING to do it. So here I go.
Today, I will give my body a 30 minute work out. It might not be the most intense 30 minutes I have ever spent, but it will be 30 minutes. Today, I will track every bit of food that enters my mouth. And so it goes...