Monday, June 24, 2013
I know that there are so many people like me who are on again off again. That's me on off ...on off...until today. The last several months have been a huge emotional roller coaster for me. I went for a regular mammogram and they found a small mass. They believe it is nothing but want to check again in 6 months. Then I was kicked twice this year dead on in the knee by two different students. Well as could be expected I got up one morning (mother's day to be exact) and couldn't walk. After an MRI they told me that I need a total knee replacement and am really to young to have one. I have done some cortisone shots to no avail. So for now the only thing that will help some is to get weight off to relieve the pressure. So I have started back to water aerobics and am exploring other activities like Kayaking.
With all that being said...as I was sitting here this morning I had this epiphany....I am accountable for everything I put in my mouth. I am accountable for exercising. I need to take care of myself and hold myself accountable for my health and well being instead of just letting it happen.
Well you say..no duh! But for me I think I just allowed my emotions to dictate, made excuses and didn't think about how I was disappointing myself. I wouldn't do that to my family, friends or co-workers so why do I think it's okay to do it to myself? It's not and I know it!
My game plan is to raise my consciousness and be deliberate about what I am doing....making sure I think before I put that food in my mouth, track what I am doing and get active.