Friday, May 17, 2013
I know I've accomplished a lot, but right now I am stuck.
Maybe I need to talk more about the weight I want to be, rather than the weight I don't want to be.
For the last little while, I've been whining about not being able to get away from that 147-148 pound range, despite the fact that I've already been down at 146 twice and bounced back up -- though not for any reason I can think of.
However, as of today, I don't care what weight I am now, I just can't wait to be 145! Then I will be able to say I've lost 57 pounds altogether.
And when I reach 142 pounds, I will be 60 pounds lighter than when I started my journey!
At least I am still on track (barely!) to be 130 pounds by the end of August.
Truth be told, though, I am losing my certainty. I no longer have an absolute belief in my ability to lose more weight. My certainty is turning into hope. Hope is not as strong as belief.
And it is not quite as motivating.
Actual weight loss is motivating.
I had no idea of the driving force my previous steady weight loss created in my will to move forward. Without that drive, I feel like I am just idling.