Sunday, May 5
Sunday, May 05, 2013
I cannot believe it has been as long as it has been since I have written a blog. And truth be told, I think the last thing I thought I was going to do when I woke up this morning was to log on to SP, where I haven't been for quite a while, and write. But here I am..
So today is my sister's 50th birthday. And she is where she has been for most of the last 5 months, next to her husband, who is terribly ill, in a hospital room. We had talked about renting a bus and taking a trip down to the Connecticut casinos to celebrate her 50th. But that is not happening. My brother in law Bob's medical issues are complex, but I think it safe to say at this point that he is in need of as many prayers are he can get. So it is here that I ask my prayer warriors, once more, if you can keep Bob, and my sister, and my niece Jessica, who is two weeks shy of graduating from college, in your prayers.
And if I might ask for some for my little family, too. Anyone who has ever dealt with serious illness in their family knows the ripple effect that it has on everyone, and we have been no different. I have been eating my way through this, and know that I must stop. I did ride my exercise bike for the first time in a long time yesterday, and it felt good, and I had every intention of trying to eat well, but, well, eating is the way I comfort myself, and I don't want to eat good stuff, I want the stuff that is going to put me into that sugar-induced catatonic state, in between trying to keep things as normal as possible for Tony, who is going through his own issues, and my incredible husband Brian, who fills every gap I have to leave while sticking my fingers in the holes on the damn to stop it from collapsing..
I have always believed in prayer, in its power, but somehow, for the last week or so, I cannot pray. So I turn to my prayers warriors, and once again, humbly ask for your help. I love you all. Thank you.