Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Didn't go to the gym this morning because I am still sick. At least the upset stomach turned out to be something I ate and cleared itself up. Still have cold symptoms (sneezes, sniffles) and general lack of energy.
Being sick makes me more likely to focus on the negative, so today I have been worrying a lot about the future of my weight loss journey.
For example, what if my body decides I'm stuck here at a size 8/10 and I never manage to lose those last 20 pounds? (I know I'm not supposed to think that -- I'm supposed to picture myself 20 pounds thinner and how great I will look and feel.)
The worst though is giving in to my fear that I will not be able to maintain this weight loss I have accomplished. I've seen on SparkPeople and occasionally in real life people who have abandoned good habits and gone back to old ways. I don't know what stressful events might occur that could derail me in future and erase all or part of my hard work. I've been keeping some of my larger clothes instead of getting rid of them, simply as an "insurance policy" in case I let myself down.
Being sick causes me to focus attention on my worries instead of maintaining a positive attitude. This is NOT how I usually am.
I'm trying to shift my focus towards the upcoming holiday weekend and some get-togethers with family that I am looking forward to.
I hope I am feeling better tomorrow.