An Interesting Turn..
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Anyone who knows me knows that without a doubt my most challenging issue to overcome is my night time eating. It sits very, very high atop the mountain over which the road to losing weight travels. I don't want to speak too soon and jinx myself, but at least for the next 33 days, I might have found a solution.
I decided that I was going to give up the generic "junk" for Lent. Now, my definition of junk is wide: cookies and all kinds of pastry, candy, ice cream.. So amazingly, since last week, I have not had this stuff. And there's lots of it in my house right now, thanks to girl scout cookies and Valentine's Day. But I have found myself so strong at that normally weak time. I find now that I stop and ask myself if I am hungry, and if I am, I have something that is a whole lot better than well, the "junk." I might have a light english muffin with a dab of peanut butter; I might have a greek yogurt, the other night I even had an orange!!
So this is all leading me to re-think this whole "binge eater" label I had placed on myself. I have always said that when the beast comes, it is relentless and unconscious in its quest to eat, literally, fist by fist of food without thought. But now that the "junk" is verbotten, what do you know, I have suddenly become a discriminating snacker.
I know that Lent will end eventually, but I am definitely going to spend the next 33 days working on this..not so much that I overthink it, because that is not ever good for me, but enough so that I figure out how and why this is working as it is..because, it IS working, both as a sacrifice in this season of sacrifice, and as a whole new set of mountain climbing equipment to help me climb this mountain before me on my Journey to Health.