What is my motivation?

Spark Coach asked what is your true motivation. I think most of us would say that we fear going back to where we were and what the worst case scenario would have been had we continued on that path. It is for me. I've already written that blog. It's depressing and negative and I don't need that anymore.

I've decided that a key part of my motivation is being positive. Sounds simple, doesn't it, yet sometimes I really have to work at it! I still get anxious and frustrated, but I can see solutions and I can deal with whatever comes up--at least, most of the time and if I can't deal with it I know I can come here and ask for help! I consider myself lucky because I have all the things that Spark has to offer, to back me up!

For the first three months at Spark, I worked very hard to make sure that I developed good habits. I referred to that time as my rehab/boot camp. Now I'm testing my wings.

My birthday was earlier this week. I really wanted to be able to just go to our favorite little neighborhood Taqueria La Unica and order whatever I wanted. Then I decided I just wanted fajitas, except for some reason I really didn't want to have to put it in the tracker (what a pain it is)! So I had my little tantrum.

Well, then we went out. I ordered the lunch fajitas. Of course, I put that in the food tracker! I didn't go crazy. I had some tortilla chips. No dessert and no special drinks, I just really wanted the fajitas.

It's funny, I was so worried about this, but it was fine. We had a wonderful time. I got to spend my birthday with my favorite people: my husband, my son and his wonderful wife and my grandson. It was perfect. We laughed and enjoyed each other's company and had great food. No worries.

It made me feel like I could do this. Each success, each positive step strengthens me, gives me confidence, and helps to motivate me to move forward.