Tuesday, August 14, 2012
I'm dead for blog titles again today. Just checking in real quick as I've got a fair bit of work to get done today and some of it will take me out of the office.
I have another scheduled supervised workout with NTB tonight. *sigh* It's not that I don't like him...I just feel like...I don't know. I think the worst part is the weigh-in and measurements. I have no idea what they're going to say but I have no hope that it's going to be all that positive. Who knows, maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised, but I honestly doubt it. It's like a knife in the gut every time. Since I've been there I have seen nothing but nothing on the scale and I don't think anyone there "gets" it. We don't know why I'm not losing weight and, honestly, I've gotten to the point where I don't even want to try to figure it out. I want to go on living my life, working out 5 days a week and eating right and not worrying about the negative results I'm seeing. Because seeing nothing after doing so much and being sore and tired from workouts and feeling stressed because I REALLY FRIGGIN' WANT SOME CHOCOLATE is annoying and disheartening so I don't even want to deal with it. It has been nice these past few weeks not really knowing from one day to the next and not really letting it stop me from doing what I know I should and what I want to do. I'm getting better at swimming, stronger on the free weights, and even though my PF is bothering me and my back and hip hurt, I've been managing. All while cooking up some amazing meals for me and my family.
So, no, I don't really want to go tonight, but I will. Because I like my gym discount - and that's the reason I started this thing in the first place. I know how to work a gym by now. I haven't lost my motivation to go. I haven't started eating crap and need another reminder of what I'm working toward. But I want that membership discount until the day they tell me, "Okay, your time is over." So I'll keep following the rules as best I can even if it looks like I'm not doing anything according to their measurements. I only have a few months left before my membership price doubles...better take advantage of it while I still can!
Speaking of the healthy meals I've been making...you can read my blog about all the batch cooking I did Sunday at my other blog:
Who knows, it could help some of you that are still holding on to the "I don't have time or money to eat healthy" excuse...
No NROLFW today since I'll be at the gym with Jason tonight. Was nice to sleep in a bit. ;)
Have a happy Tuesday...gotta get back to work!!