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Learning to Trust Myself

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Over the years I've been on many diets. What did I learn? All the things everyone else knows about diets, too. I also learned not to trust myself. I learned to tell myself that I can't. It didn't matter what it was, my answer was always the same. I can't. I can't lose weight. I can't exercise. I don't have to tell myself this, I just know I can't.

Ten weeks ago today I decided I can't. No, I mean I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! I don't want to be the person who can't lose weight. I don't want to be the person who can't exercise. I don't want to be the person who seldom leaves the house. I don't want to be the person who can't believe in herself anymore, who can't trust herself.

Every week I worry that no matter how hard I work at eating right and exercising that it won't work. I tell myself if I can't trust myself, then I can trust SparkPeople. It works for other people, it can work for me.

Now I need to work at something else. Set a new goal: learning to trust myself.

I think that somehow, I need to get it through my thick skull that every step I take, every mindful choice I make is part of rebuilding that trust in myself. I'm strong. I know I am. In my life I've done things I never thought I could. I've faced those things and handled them well. Of course, I felt, at the time, that I had to face those things because it was the only way forward. This is the same thing, isn't it? I'm committing to a healthy lifestyle. That's not a frightening prospect, that's a joyous, momentous decision!
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  • HANAHSCLOUDY
    Aww, what a wonderful read for me this morning. emoticon To just keep going in spite of myself.

    You are a constant joy, and a wonderful giving person. Thank you sooooooo much for taking the time thinking about my blogs. And all the heart felt sentiments and encouragement you have given me!!

    I feel like your sitting here enjoying a cup of coffee when I read your responses!

    Hugz
    3174 days ago
  • DESERTJULZ
    Linda, I trust you. You will make the right choices. I know this. You will succeed. I know this too!

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    3185 days ago
  • MIDORI_SPARK
    This is a great new goal, and I hope that you will achieve it soon! We all trust that you can do this :)
    3186 days ago
  • MIDNIGHTER1
    I just woke up one day and decided I was tired of being fat. I decided I did not want to do like other I saw,lose weight and then go back to bad habits and put it back on and more. I heard two voices ,one that said I could do it ,the other said I could not.
    I decided to listen to the first one. Your mind will tell you many things like,it's too hard,I'll start tomorrow or you can't do it. Meanwhile your desire will tell you that you can. You have to fight and believe.Good for you.
    3187 days ago
  • SUNSHINE192DAY
    Very proud of you! I'm in the same boat right now and I'm so glad to have someone else voice what I've been feeling! Thank you sooo much for that!
    3187 days ago
  • SNOOPY-ACE
    The right mine will help do your I CANS! You can do it .
    3187 days ago
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