I'm 14 weeks into this 3rd pregnancy journey of mine, I'm already into the second trimester, and things continue to rapidly change.
I fought so hard to get all that extra weight off, to become healthier, stronger, more toned and now I feel my clothes getting tighter, more snug, and uncomfortable... this is a whole lot harder to accept this time around from my other pregnancies. Why? Because my other pregnancies I wanted that big round belly, and I set myself up to end up with an additional 77 pounds from developing poor eating and exercise habits. I just want to do this right... and I'm trying really hard... but no matter how hard I try, my stomach IS going to expand because I'm growing a child. While this is such a blessing to most, this is also something very difficult for me to accept.
Knowing that before too very long, I will no longer be able to wear the clothes I've been fitting perfectly into.
Seeing how some outfits are no longer flattering on me because the waistline is beginning to dig into my growing baby bump.
Feeling how uncomfortable some of my clothes are... pants (jeans mostly), belts, bras, and on and on it seems to go!
It doesn't make it easier to accept this and move on when I'm growing so much faster than my first or second pregnancy. The first baby always takes much longer to show... my second while faster was still longer because I had extra weight. But this time, it feels like.... BAM!!!!! Here I am!
Throw in knowing that things are going to get harder, and I'm just kind of a ball or emotions... how do I mean? Well, my running has already been affected by several factors that have come and gone; nausea and extreme fatigue. While being nauseous for the most part has left me alone, I'm still struggling with being tired. I'm still running, but not as much as I would like, especially with this summer heat coming in.
So what am I going to do? My belly will only get bigger and totally uncomfortable to run with, and at this rate, that won't be too terribly far off.
I'm looking at picking zumba back up more regularly because I can modify my intensity level and it's indoor(A/C BABY!).
I don't know how else to explain how I'm feeling right now other than trying to wrap my head around being bigger for a good reason. This is the only time it's okay to have a round stomach, to put on weight... but I have to do it right, and I'm doing my best -I know that's all that matters. And yet, here I am trying to "suck it in", and constantly hide my changing shape. Imagine my situation... you finally drop all the weight you've needed to in order to be "healthy", you've been told how gorgeous you are (I know I know... it's not that I'm going to be ugly or ever was, but follow with me please), You've had SO much more energy and accomplished so much.... and now it's changing week by week!
You can't run as far, or as fast, or even as often... you're exhausted MOST of the time, and you're whole body is physically changing, bigger belly, tighter clothes, bigger belly, tighter clothes, oh my! I want to be positive, I don't want this to be something I obsess over, so I suppose the reason I'm obsessing is so I won't obsess! Haha! Does that make sense?? I want to be in the right frame of mind, I really truly want to do my best, to watch the scale, not worry about it.
Well, this is where I'm at, and I imagine anyone else who has or will lose all that extra weight and find themselves pregnant will go through this too. We have to keep pushing forward, and rocking it out.
Second trimester... 14 weeks