More injuries, more frustration...NOT happy.....
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Do not really know where to start.....
Most of you are on my FB page so you probably know where this is going. I am still battling this crazy calf injury and it is turning to a far bigger problem than I imagined. I am receiving treatments from a PT and I am going in to have an ultrasound on Friday to see if I have any large tears.
I tried running and walking last night and I only made it .30 miles before it cramped up again leaving me limping home. We are worried and frustrated as my race is 38 days away. This is not just any race. It will be my first marathon, it is in Scotland and it is on my 35th birthday. I have been waiting for this and my heart hurts so bad as I do not know if I will be able to continue. I already had to cancel Rome this year and the thought of backing out of another marathon kills me.
The flights and hotels are still booked so nothing has been done yet to cancel. We are waiting to see what the ultrasound says and if I can get my run in this weekend. It is hard for me to think about right now....14 to 16 miles on Saturday and I could not even make it .30 last night????? How on earth???
Anyways, we are praying and hoping for the best. All I can do is rest and ice and wait. It is driving me crazy. Normally, I am a upbeat, happy, positive person but I feel so weighted down. I just keep telling myself IT IS JUST A RACE. Thank God I was not just diagnosed with cancer. Thank God my family is safe and healthy. I am trying to focus on these things....but it is hard.
I will report back on Friday how everything went.
I know several of you were concerned it was electrolytes but I was told it was not and it is truly a muscular injury due to overtraining on hills without proper recovery and stretching. Basically, it is my fault. A hard but important lesson to learn. I am taking magnesium, I eat so much fruit and veggies my electrolytes are more than ok, basically my diet is great. This was all from ME not listening to my body and basically being a stupid, stubborn runner who was so very excited to be running in a new country with a fantastic new hilly terrain and I took it too far........
The big question now is do I continue on and try to walk the marathon....crawl if I have to and try to make the cut off time or do I bow out and say goodbye to what would be my 35th birthday marathon. Any thoughts or advice is more than welcomed. You guys know me, I can be strong willed but I do not want to do something stupid......which is something I usually do. But do I miss out on a dream? A goal? I do not know.....