You're Doing It Wrong! - LiveFit Week 3, Day 17
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
No workout to report yet. Hubs kept me up a little late last night, so I wasn't able to drag myself out of bed when I finally rolled over at 4:30am. No matter, I'll get it done tonight after work. Thankfully I usually tend to miss the rush since I don't get off until 6pm...hopefully that holds true again tonight, though tonight looks like a pretty simple night working Chest and Triceps.
I hopped on bb.com (bodybuilding.com for those not in the know) this morning just to check my routine and OOPS! I'm doing it wrong! I've been lifting a bit heavier for sure, but I didn't remember that Jamie drops the sets from 12 reps to 10 in week three. Of course, this just means I can lift heavier because I don't have to sacrifice form on those last two reps. *big grin* Going to see what I can pull out tonight!
I did a little more research on bb.com this morning about those lunges too. Totally missed that the site actually gives you alternative exercises if you look for them. The alts for my "walking lunges" (which are just forward lunges for me as there's really no where to walk in my gym holding a huge barbell without risking smacking someone over the head with it) are...different kinds of lunges! *lmao* *facepalm* These include step-back lunges (or reverse lunges) and single leg splits, which are basically lunges with your back leg up on a flat bench. I'm actually thinking I'll try the latter. I think the new angle will take a lot of the pressure off my ankle and maybe will save me some PF pain. Foot is still super aggrevated today, so I need to find some alternative. If this doesn't work, I'll simply input some leg presses and call it good. Nobody can be perfect all the time, and I've got to ensure I'm saving my foot so I have some chance and hope of running again one day.
I have to say I've been getting a little nervous about adding in cardio in just a week and a half. I thought maybe I'd be more ready by then, but it doesn't really seem likely. The foot is better, for sure, but I haven't been doing stellar at all my stretches and such (trying to remedy that starting now) and my night brace? It doesn't last more than about an hour before I'm waking up stripping it off. The stupid thing is really uncomfortable, not to mention that I swell when I sleep (does anyone else do this?). No matter how much water I drink, I tend to swell at least a little bit while I'm sleeping at night. I figure it's just my body trying to repair itself in the best way possible, and as long as I keep up with my water it's nothing too awful bad. But it's the main reason I don't wear my rings to bed. In the morning I find them hugging my fingers just a little too tight and it's a bit annoying. When my foot swells, the straps start to hurt it and I actually wake up from the discomfort from the brace and take it off. Sometimes I don't even remember doing it. I still try to start out with it on, though. Maybe I should put it on while I'm "relaxing" before I go to sleep. Hrm....
Yesterday's calorie count ended up stellar as I was just over a net of 1800 calories. The scale rewarded me today with a sub-300 number (297.8 to be exact), but I'm not putting too much stock in that as I've seen it before and then I go back up the next day. Still, my one and only chance of breaking through is to continue on like I'm doing, and I have another net 1800 calorie day planned today. The best part about my meal plan today? I'm actually OVER on potassium. And I even forgot my banana this morning at home, so that's not in the meal plan at all. Some changes I've made? I made a batch of the Carrot Cake Protein Bars last night with walnuts in it. Figured it would only work to enhance the flavor and would boost my calories just a bit without me feeling like a friggin' cow.
Because I have been feeling like a cow lately. Yesterday, as I told my girl K, I kept looking at the clock thinking, "OMG! I have to eat AGAIN!?" *insert pouty face here* I seriously was not hungry ONE SINGLE SECOND OF THE DAY yesterday. In fact, at times it was a bit downright uncomfortable to feel full for so long. (Not overstuffed, but full.) I couldn't even muster the last few bites of my chili for lunch before I finally gave in and pushed it aside and figured it wouldn't hurt me to be 50 calories under what I expected or whatever.
Of course, to many people this sounds like a stupid thing to say. Most people want to eat more food on a "diet"...yea, I know. But when you're eating clean, healthy food...you just don't quite realize until you do it how much food it actually takes to reach those high calorie goals that are set for the big girls like me. And it's not like one day I'll be able to eat less. I plan on keeping my body in top shape. I'd love to say I never stopped training. Sure there will be days or even weeks off here or there, but I'm a bit addicted to this feeling (can't believe I forgot that!) and I don't see myself stopping if/when I ever reach goal weight. And according to my calculations, whenever I'm training, even if I'm 170 pounds (considered healthy by BMI standards, which are crap because if I never lost another bit of muscle I'd be about 2% body fat at 170 pounds) I'd have to eat about 1900 calories to maintain my training energy and keep my body from losing all that hard-earned muscle.
Maybe it's the momentum talking. Maybe it's the feeling in my shoulders/arms/back of my legs (hello, Mr. Doms! Nice to feel you again!), but I've got this rush of pure hope running through me right now. Hope it doesn't break anytime soon. I still have a long way to go, but, surprisingly, I'm not thinking like that anymore.
You'll get a lot of weight loss advice on this site, but if I could give you just one thing that might keep you going - just one bit of advice to stop you from jumping off the "I can't do this anymore" cliff it would be this:
Throw out your scale.
Well, only if you take too much stock in what it says.
Stop thinking about "I've got THIS much weight to lose."
Invest in a way to test body fat measurement and aim for a lower percentage.
And when you go to the gym and lift heavy (seriously, girls...stop being wimpy about it! show those boys who really rules the world!), just think to yourself that you just spent the past 30-45 minutes challenging your muscles.
And know that the next time you come back to it, you'll be even stronger.
...but only if you treat your body right.
I've been here 2 1/2 weeks. That's it. 2 1/2 weeks spent solely focused on nothing but lifting and lifting heavy. I've had DOMS most days, usually with only one day not sore. But when I finally feel recovered and refreshed? It's the greatest feeling in the world.
And, I've changed my mind about what I said yesterday. I AM noticing changes. My stomach is shaping differently. I'm starting to lose a bit of those pesky rolls and it's actually starting to flatten out (take into account this means something totally different when you weigh 300 pounds, but still, it's noticable to me). Today I looked down while I was getting water, not bending over at the waist, and I saw my toes. Well, boobs, then a bit of toes peeping out at me. I see my calves popping out. I see my shoulders and arms getting the kinds of bumps that are supposed to be there...and that's when relaxed, not flexed. I'm not denying myself what I'm seeing or second-guessing myself. I see it. It must be. I've spent countless hours staring at myself in the mirror, hating my body. So why would I think I wouldn't recognize the changes that are taking place? Why do I need someone else to point them out to me? I know this body better than anyone because I've been obsessed over it, and over changing it, for so very long.
So, making a few minor adjustments at the gym tonight. Trying to figure out how I can take the boys to the city with me on Friday and workout and then maybe do something fun with them after (maybe a matinee) since it is their spring break. I think one of the gyms has child care and I think another may have a swim time available where people can bring their kids, but I need to verify that. Also have to call and get another trainer tryout and another weigh-in set up so I can see if my body fat % has improved at all.
Lots to do. But feeling good about it.