Been Awhile and Struggling Hard...
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Hello, it's been awhile since I blogged so I thought I'd hop on and do so. Since last November I've really struggled with my weight worse than I had in many years. After losing 56 lbs I had been going up and down on the scale for about a year and then when I had my surgery last November I just kept going up on the scale until I had gained back all but about 10 pounds of it.
So needless to say I'm pretty sad about having gained all that back. Since about the first of the year I've been trying to get the weight back off AGAIN. I've done the lose a pound or two, gain a pound or two and it was getting me down really bad. Worse than I told anyone honestly.
About a week and a half ago I got on the scale and I literally cried. Where had all this weight came from? Where was all the energy and self confidence I had gained from losing all the weight?? Not to mention the depression I was feeling from the weight gain. So I looked myself in the face (via a mirror LOL) and said "This is it!"
Since that morning I've been working out again and watching what I eat. Am I perfect? No, I don't expect perfection but I'm doing really good and feeling really positive. So far I've lost 3 lbs. I am really hoping this is the wake up call I needed to get back on track and stay there!!