Wednesday, February 01, 2012
you know the mental dialog you go through while fighting a temptation?
"you need chocolate"
"you've been trying for years to lose weight and you've already failed"
"what is one little snack?"
"you're pregnant, it won't even show right now"
"you deserve this treat"
"you haven't cut out sugar completely yet, anyway."
"you just ate a sugary dessert last night, you already aren't being as serious as you should"
I just really really really wanted some chocolate sauce. Homemade chocolate sauce that I whipped up from my mom's recipe and served guests on Sunday. There's almost a whole little pint jar of it in my fridge, and it tastes even better cold and gooey.
I just put my son down for a nap, I'm feeling tired (and very pregnant!) myself, and could use a little pick me up. Some "me" time. Some "me" food.
But guess what? I decided to wait it out. I asked myself if I was actually hungry, and the answer is "no". I just ate a healthy lunch, I'm full and satisfied. So I knew it was just a craving. And I also know that I haven't lost the weight I've wanted to because I keep giving into the ideas mentioned above.
"I deserve a treat"
What I deserve is to be real with myself. To realize my body, and my limitations, and my desires to be healthy are worth more than that treat. To get past that craving. To know that one little change is enough. If I don't take it day by day, I'll never achieve my goals.
Today I said "no" to my unhealthy craving. One notch for victory, one more persausion for me next time. If I did it today, I can do it another day, too.