Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates...

That line from the movie Forrest Gump keeps running through my head lately. The rest of the quote goes, "You never know what you're going to get."

The problem for me is how I REACT to what I get! Oh sure, I can be the life of the party when things are going right. No problem. But, when things get a little dicey, the Stress Queen boots the Party Queen out the door!

Looking back on my life, I think I see why I have always had problems with my weight. I am definitely an emotional eater. I love food under normal situations and I love to cook. But, during the bad times in life, I want to eat everything in sight. No matter if it is something I really like or n0t. Just anything.

Those of you who know a little about me, know I have been dealing with my DH's decreasing kidney function for the last few months. I have spent most of this last week stressing about his appointment with the specialist yesterday. To the point where I think I actually made myself sick. And, didn't feel like going to the gym. And, did not eat as well as I should. The good news is that I did NOT go overboard and start binging on everything in sight! That is progress and I will take it!!!

As I suspected, DH's kidney function continues to decrease and is now at 21%. We have an appointment with a vascular surgeon next week to schedule his surgery to create a fistula in his arm for his eventual dialysis. The doctor said it takes 3 to 4 months to heal and they want to get it ready now. We have been advised to have him do the in clinic hemodialysis instead of the home peritoneal dialysis we had originally planned for. In many ways, this is a relief to me. He has a lot of other medical issues including diabetes and is on a bunch of medications for blood pressure and heart problems also. I think we are both feeling more comfortable with the idea of having medical professionals with him during his dialysis.

We went to the gym together today and had a great workout! It felt so good to be doing something normal together. We will get through this time together as we have gotten through everything else life has given us over the past 32 years. Life is like a box of chocolates....