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Whirlwind of emotions today

Sunday, January 29, 2012

So today I reached the 4 pound mark. I was so happy that I did 90 minutes of cardio. This is the first time I have had this kind of self motivation work for me. Just celebrating the little things. WooHoo!!!!

Then the brakes slammed on as I told my DH about the greatness of my morning. His reply was much less than I had expected. Actually it was the exact opposite of what I wanted and needed. I got the "And...your point is? Am I supposed to jump up and down every time you lose a pound? That's just stupid." reply. Then he thought it would be funny to give me a list of things to do while he is working this evening and then ask "can your fat ass get that done?"

Are you kidding me?!?!?

As if that wasn't enough he proceeded to tell me that four pounds in 3 weeks is nothing because he has lost 7 and hasn't even tried. I tried telling him that men and women lose differently and he just doesn't believe that. And while I am on my rant, I might as well point out that I don't like to work out when he is home because he makes fun of me then tells me I better do more cause it isn't working.

In one day I have gone from happy and hopeful to sad, depressed and angry. I know that I shouldn't let what others say bother me so much, but its my husband and if there is one person other than myself that I expect to be supportive it is him. I don't think I am asking too much.

Now to spend the rest of the day sticking to my plan and not letting myself get off track. Tomorrow is another day and at least I decided to blog instead of drowning my sorrow in sweets like I used to do. One step at a time, I will get through today and each day after that no matter who is behind me or not.
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  • THINRONNA
    Don't let him get you down!!! Keep at this Amy. You are right...he does not get it. You have every right to jump up an ddown for four pounds...heck you can jump up and down for one pound and should! Please don't lose your focus because of this ...keep blogging and let us support you. You are worth it and you will do this! emoticon
    3360 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10759228
    You can do this. I know you can.
    Like AUNT63 said let it bounce off of you.
    At least you have the mindset to take one day at a time even though your emotions are on a rollercoaster right now. Keep yourself focused on you. Four punds is WONDERFUL. Since Dec 17 I have lost 10 myself. There are weeks that I gain though.
    Mabey the next time you hare your sucess with him (make a mental note to do so) tell him if he puts you down again that one of your reasons for doing this is for more limbedto in the bedroom (even if is is a little white lie). I have a feeling that he might change his tune. LOL
    3361 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    Don't let anyone and I mean anyone ever take the power you have in becoming healthy away from you. YOU are worth the effort. I don't know how you can just tune him out.....YOU are strong and could try just letting what he says bounce off of you.
    Please continue to post your feelings.........WE love you and are here for you...NO MATTER WHAT......Hang in there...we care! emoticon
    3361 days ago
  • TRUCKERWIFE2
    I've heard others whose spouses were less than supportive especially at first. When I started this my husband expected me to lose a few pounds and gain them back + like I usually did. I was pretty hot when mine gave me the "what am I supposed to do Jumpand down" routine. He's not quite as negative as yours as he doesn't comment on my weight no matter how heavy I've gotten. I find this a safe place to share my victories and when I don't do well. My husband has come around and is now one of my biggest supporters. Yours may come around too as you shed those pounds. He may also show his pride in non-verbal ways like paying more attention to you in public like mine does now. You are doing so awsome! 90 min of exercise in 1 day is fantastic and I hope you keep it up.
    3361 days ago
  • MISFITFLYNN1
    I couldn't agree more with the poster above! You should be over the moon about your sucess!! That is huge, I have been working my butt off for 3 wks and still haven't reached 4lbs! BE PROUD!! Men can be such JERKS when the they want to and even sometimes when they think they are just trying to be funny! I am so happy you came here to vent instead of diving into the sweets, such another huge accomplishment! I think you are doing amazing and I can't wait to see what you do next :)
    3361 days ago
  • 1DRWOMAN
    OMG! Iam sorry that your man doesn't understand how important this is to you. I want to smack him upside the head. At least now you know you shouldn't share things with him...share them with someone who is supportive and encouraging and who believes in you and every single important step. You could try having a conversation with him telling him how much that hurt your feelings, etc...but not sure if he's ready. The BEST thing would be to get happy and stronger and leaner and not say anything. let him wonder who this ass-kicking woman is and where did she come from!!!! Some men feel if their women get hotter that they'll leave 'em...so maybe he's just insecure as well as a male boob.

    Now..onto more important things...YOU! You keep going! You be proud of every single achievement no matter how big or small. It all adds up. I know it's hard, but don't let one negative poo poo person ruin your mood and progress. You are better than that. As you gain more confidence and self esteem, you will discard all those poo poo people from your life. It makes things SOOOO much brighter, happier, and lighter and in return makes you all those things as well. Stress and sadness hamper weight loss...Be positive! Surround yourself with positive people and things as much as possible. Read positive books and listen to music that gets you moving and makes ya' boogie :)
    And Find your support network. Someone who LOVES you, supprts you, encourages you but also holds you accountable and doesn't sabotage you because of their insecurities and/or jealousy. Befriend someone you admire and look up to. :)

    YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! SHOW 'EM WHAT A ROCKSTAR YOU ARE!
    Holler if you need anything.
    xo
    Patty
    3361 days ago

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