I'm Feeling Better
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I'm finally feeling better I'm just tired today. I'm going to workout at least 2 more days this week. My work schedule has been changed twice this week. Yesterday I was suppose to close but I worked a midshift & tomorrow, I was suppose to open but I'm working from 8:30-4:30. It's 8 hours but I took it when they asked me instead of the other girl who thinks she should get all the hours. Last night I was so depressed that I cried til my eyes hurt. I cried cause where I'm at in life is what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. So the rest of my life I'm going to be a cashier at a dollar srore. I'm going to live in a house that falls apart little by little everyday. I have to live with the fact that my husband & I are never going to have kids (so I will never know what motherhood is like) & of course since I have low self esteem (about myself) I'm probably never going to get this weight off. It will be like this for the rest of my life & that sucks. I know that my house keeps my warm, dry & out of the bad weather, & at least I have a job (but it's a dead end job). I can't talk to anyone about this cause no one understands where I'm coming from. Well, I better go for now. I just had to let all of that go. It's been building up for a while.