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Here I Go AGAIN... :(

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

I fell off the rails big time a few months back and blew all the progress I made last year. I think it started with a bout of depression, although I'm not completely sure. Here I am back again, only 3 lbs less than my starting weight on Sparkpeople.

As I was feeling totally out of control, I decided to join Rosemary Conley's diet and exercise classes. I have a friend who attends these meetings, and they have really helped her. Last year I had tried to do things on my own, putting back money weekly as if I were going to a group like Rosemary Conley, Weight Watchers or Slimming World. That worked for a while, until depression struck.

Although I'm not attending the same class as my friend, I will be able to text her when I'm feeling low and also contact the leader of my class. (My friend lives in the next town over, so we are only able to meet up monthly due to work and family commitments). My friend and I have made a pact to meet every 4-6 weeks to measure each other and take photos. We used to go to lunch with each other every 4-6 weeks, but I've decided I need to stay out of restaurants for a while. I'm just not feeling strong enough to say no to tasty treats right now.

I attended my first Rosemary Conley class yesterday. Her classes are different from Weight Watchers and Slimming World in that you have a 45 minute exercise class during each session. You go in and get weighed, as in other slimming groups, then sit for a chat and celebrate successes. The last 45 minutes you have a session of aerobics and toning. I was a bit sore today after the class, but not terribly sore. Another two ladies (sisters) joined yesterday when I joined. Although neither of them have as much weight to lose as I do, they both have a significant amount of weight to lose, so I think they can be support systems for me as well. They gave me a lift home after the meeting and seem really nice.

My 49th birthday is next Tuesday- January 24, 2012. The fact that I'll be turning 50 in a year's time is a big motivating factor for me. I simply do not want to ring in 2013 as a fat person. I'm absolutely sick of being fat. My sister in law will also turn 50 next year. Her birthday is in March. We've talked about having a joint birthday party next year in February to celebrate both our birthdays. I want to be a slim person when we have that party.

I'll have to learn to deal with my depression better, so that I don't repeat the mistakes of last year. Hopefully these support systems I'm putting in place now will help me to do that. I suppose I haven't failed until I stop trying.

Here's to a healthy and happy 2012...
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    Hey hang in there~~
    3224 days ago
    Hiya, hon, I was wondering where you'd gone... I can identify with the black cloud of depression only too well, unfortunately. But it sounds like you're making a good start, and the RC sessions sound great as they incorporate exercise with the supportive group meetings. I admit, I read the magazine (and use some of the recipes, too) from time to time.

    Keep us posted!
    3227 days ago
    I've never heard of that program and it sounds great!

    I'm just getting back on the "spark wagon", too. We are similar in age (I'll be 50 in two years)

    Best of luck to you on your journey!! emoticon
    3232 days ago
    the good news is you are making an effort to change never give up you will be the person you want to be. here at sparkpeople it is about being consistant with your efforts and each time i bet you get a little closer than you did before. my longest steak since i started was 32 days for the spark points. nov and dec were frustrating in that i never made it past 5 days. i did log food but forgot to do the spark points wheel every couple of days.
    3232 days ago
    Every year for 20 years has been an off year, every time I lose any, I gain it back with a plus, depression is a killer and it's getting a lot of people. God bless you and as long as we keep trying we havent' lost the battle.
    3232 days ago
    Welcome back! 2011 was an off year for me too, and it's been exciting getting back on track. Stick with us - we're all in this together.

    3232 days ago
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