Friday Check In
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Hi my sweet friends -
Well, today was my big day. The meet up with not only my biological father (whom I just met up with a few weeks ago at starbucks after YEARS of no contact), my stepmom (havent seen her since high school at LEAST) my stepsister (now 19, saw her when she was 8) and my stepbrother (never met).
I was extremely nervous as it is a very emotionally stressful situation (at least to me it was!). Before meeting up at 3:30 at the pier, I ran errands and really didnt have much of an appetite but made myself eat what I could.
Met all of them at the pier, and my dad and stepbrother and I went running. My stepmom, stepsister and her boyfriend decided not to run, but instead walk along the shore. We started off running on the sand by the water (where its more packed down) but it was high tide, and at that particular beach it is also sloped..so it was ROUGH!!! We kept having to dodge the water and run up to the unpacked sand which is a whooooole different workout. We saw 2 dolphins playing in the water, and loving the beautiful scenery. It was getting hard to keep running that way, my HR was skyrocketing, so we went up to the boardwalk instead and that was sooooo much easier! Ran to the other pier (almost 2 miles from one pier to the other) and then back again. Met up with the rest of the crew, then walked to dinner.
It was about a 5 minute walk, went to BJ's Brewhouse. Split a vegetarian pizza with my dad and we all chatted. I felt pretty comfortable with them but sad at the same time. They were all so close, inside jokes and obviously loved all being together, and I got jealous. I never got to have that with my dad. And MY FAMILY, is tough for me. My mother and I dont have a good relationship in the slightest, I'm not close to my stepdad or my sisters, and its a very negative environment. *sigh*
Anyway, after dinner, we then took a ferry across the water and walked around Balboa Island. We did SOO much walking! It was so beautiful as many of the boats were still lit up as well as the houses from christmas. Walked and got ice cream, then walked all the way back, ferry across and got back to our cars. Hugged them all goodbye, and drove on home.
In all, I had a great time. I'm having mixed feelings as im sure many "kids" of divorce do, and I definitely want to be close to them all and have another family, but its definitely an emotional stress.
My knee held up, i have a feeling its going to be sore in the morning, but it was definitely worth it. I really want to run again tomorrow, so I'll hopefully be able to do so.
No plans for NYE, and I'm okay with that. Like I said before, 2011 wasnt the best, so I'm super happy seeing it go, and excited for 2012. I'm going to post my 2012 goals soon!!!
Hope you all had a good day, and a happy new year!