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Old year be gone!

Friday, December 30, 2011

I need to blog to keep afloat right now, and journalling my thoughts and feelings at a time like this causes me to write like my hand is tripping over my fingers! You know, the old phrase from years ago when people used to still write, "I can't read my own writing." Well, that's what happens to me when there are so many thoughts and feelings choking me and in a bottleneck trying to see the light of day.
Maybe it's better that the young generation mainly prints, and EVERYONE types! Remember Typing 101 class from years ago?, when you had to know grammar and spelling, when OMG and WT_ didn't even exist because no one would have known what they meant, or wrote them? Who would have said such things, anyway? When bleeping every other word on a TV show was totally unnecessary? But I wander...At least it's legible, and a bit of a diversion from where I was just a short while ago. looking back and needing to leave this behind so I don't become as Lot's wife, a pillar of salt. It's my interpretation that she cried so much over what she was leaving behind that she became frozen or paralyzed into an immovable object that just couldn't go on into her future. Today I am in danger of being stuck due to the accident on Christmas because I don't know what to do next. I need to pick up the phone and find out, I guess.
So far I haven't eaten over any of this, and it's been 5 days now. I'm holding steady, and my plan is to plan my food for tomorrow night's big celebration in front of the TV so I don't blow it all on the last night of 2011. I think part of my plan will be to sit and write a list of my blessings for the old year, a gratitude list. No turning back, just forward. Last year was a lot of hard work, and it's past. Bon voyage, old year!!!!
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    Blogging to stay afloat sounds so familiar as does the crowding of thoughts into a bottleneck where I can't type fast enough ( I'm a fast typist). emoticon

    Your analogy of Lot's wife being immobilized by grief really struck a responsive chord for me. I had been down in weight when I moved from WA to AZ in 2008. I 'stuffed' all the feelings about leaving behind children, grandchildren, church home & friends. I isolated myself completely & fell into a destructive cycle of feeling horrible because I overate, looked in the mirror & being disappointed by gaining but being unable to STOP it. Grief can paralyze.

    Fortunately by God's grace alone, I'm in a very different place now. In October I got scared straight by the doctor.

    There are no easy solutions but it sounds to me, Patty, that you have a good plan of blogging until the feelings are released & not eating over them.

    Be gentle & patient with yourself. Hugs & prayers.
    3113 days ago
  • JILL313
    Wishing You and All of Us a Healthy year of making good choices and getting fit. My Spark needs to get brighter so I can make healthy choices once again. Happy 2012 Patty and I'm hoping both our Sparks will be shining brighter this Year.


    3113 days ago
    A gratitude list sounds lovely. Be kind to yourself. Have a happy and healthy new year! emoticon
    3114 days ago
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    Go ahead and make that gratitude list, it does wonders for you. emoticon
    Praying you have a Wonderful and Happy New Year filled with the blessings of God. emoticon
    3114 days ago
    Good luck with staying focused and reaching all your goals and more. Hoping you enjoy a fantastic and interesting 2012 +Mark...
    3114 days ago
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