Old year be gone!
Friday, December 30, 2011
I need to blog to keep afloat right now, and journalling my thoughts and feelings at a time like this causes me to write like my hand is tripping over my fingers! You know, the old phrase from years ago when people used to still write, "I can't read my own writing." Well, that's what happens to me when there are so many thoughts and feelings choking me and in a bottleneck trying to see the light of day.
Maybe it's better that the young generation mainly prints, and EVERYONE types! Remember Typing 101 class from years ago?, when you had to know grammar and spelling, when OMG and WT_ didn't even exist because no one would have known what they meant, or wrote them? Who would have said such things, anyway? When bleeping every other word on a TV show was totally unnecessary? But I wander...At least it's legible, and a bit of a diversion from where I was just a short while ago. looking back and needing to leave this behind so I don't become as Lot's wife, a pillar of salt. It's my interpretation that she cried so much over what she was leaving behind that she became frozen or paralyzed into an immovable object that just couldn't go on into her future. Today I am in danger of being stuck due to the accident on Christmas because I don't know what to do next. I need to pick up the phone and find out, I guess.
So far I haven't eaten over any of this, and it's been 5 days now. I'm holding steady, and my plan is to plan my food for tomorrow night's big celebration in front of the TV so I don't blow it all on the last night of 2011. I think part of my plan will be to sit and write a list of my blessings for the old year, a gratitude list. No turning back, just forward. Last year was a lot of hard work, and it's past. Bon voyage, old year!!!!