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Friday, December 16, 2011

Coming back to life today after a cookie binge night. It was the second night in a row that I polished off a (small, thank goodness) box of special cookies. Now they are gone, AND I'M SO GLAD. I finished the night with a capful of Pepto Bismol, which is the only stuff that finally calms down my stomach. Of course, I cried out to the Lord, "WHY?" I couldn't trace my actions back to any event which triggered me.
This morning when I awoke, it hit me: A very close friend with food AND co-dependency addictions, drew me into her web of neediness and negativity. I never suspected what had happened because I got caught up in a day long cycle of prayer and ministering to her multiplicity of crisis events. How could I see the forest for the trees? I was needy and so available to help, and be needed. At this time of year I have been going out to lunch with groups of friends whom I love and cherish. But they are not my family; my deceased daughter and my estranged granddaughter, or my mother and siblings hundreds of miles away, or my nearby daughter and grandson whom I hardly ever see.
So I was lonely and vulnerable as so many of us are this time of year. I needed to be positive and grateful for the blessings of friends and family that I HAVE, but I resorted to negative thinking without even realizing I was having the "Poor me's." Boo Hoo!
I wanted to share this story because so many of us fall into "moods" this time of year, and we turn to our (always) best friend, FOOD. Even if we manage to remain strong the rest of the year, somehow the season throws us a curve ball at the end of the year. so stay strong, spark friends. We are here for each other, sometimes in ways that our physically present or absent friends and family aren't. I know I'll frequently be turning to these paqes and blogs in the days and weeks ahead. Keep in mind that HE is an ever present friend, and just as HE answered my prayer this morning, I know the Lord will make a way for you. God bless you my dear friends. I feel so much better now. Ready for what comes my way. I AM NOT ALONE, WE ARE NOT ALONE. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • TRACYZABELLE
    I am boycotting baking this year-- so easy for me to eat my goods~ Arghh
    3127 days ago
  • JOANOFSPARK
    So true..Thanks for sharing. I can certainly relate to your blog......Yes, we are never alone, for we have our Spark friends to help us through those temptations and dark times of the soul.. emoticon
    3129 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4292560
    emoticon for sharing. emoticon emoticon
    3129 days ago
  • JULIEANNCAN
    Thank you for sharing this. You are right, none of us are alone. Here's to a better day today! emoticon
    3129 days ago
  • CAROLYNINJOY1
    Thank you for sharing valuable insights. It is indeed easy to slip into old behaviors that no longer meet our needs.

    You are never alone. emoticon
    3129 days ago
  • NELLJONES
    I wonder why we always figure out the "why" AFTER we eat?
    3129 days ago
  • DEMETERSCO
    Each morning is a chance to start over - even when we've given in to the logic of "If I eat them all now, they won't be around to tempt me anymore."

    I have so "been there, done that". We are here to tell each other that one slip doesn't end a healthy lifestyle, and yesterday's box of cookies does not chase away the loneliness.

    I love your last sentence -I AM NOT ALONE, WE ARE NOT ALONE
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    3129 days ago
  • JEANNE229
    I can identify with your blog SO much.

    Wish I had the "why" answers.
    3129 days ago
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