jumping the relationship 9mm handgun
Monday, November 14, 2011
I got a new gun, its a Ruger 9, I got it b/c my roomate is out in Vegas for a week and being in the middle of nowhere in my new home alone kinda creeps me out. I tested it out, a benefit of living in the middle of nowhere, on a miller lite can @ 10 yards. I shot the s**t out of it!! lol. That's not easy to do with a handgun that far away. My roomie told me "If anyone steps on this property and you don't know them, shoot them in the head and don't ask questions till the cops get here." Will do Cody... Will do.
Its absoutely too ironic that Im way too trigger happy in other aspects of my life as well. I made such a stupid decision last night, I coud shoot myself. lol. Actually I did, I commited new relationship suicide!!! I asked Justin if he wanted to be in a relationship with me!! WTF was I thinking!! Now that Ive slept on it I have more perspective on what I was thinking. I just wanted some affrimation that he was into me! Is that so much to ask??!! I know when Im looking good, I know that Im a good person, etc. I know these things, is it too much to ask to hear someone else say it?? Im an only child, the only grandchild and Im used to having guys fall all over me. To give me compliments constantly. Is that so bad?? I can barely get a a "your beautiful" out of him! He is a really great guy, Im just used to what Im used to and I really like the compliments. Anyway, he shot me down. He said it was way too early to jump into a relationship together. And hes right, I know that. Im just confused bc I like him, I just want some love. Maybe hes not the one.... Maybe my quest will stil continue. Ive dated some awesome Fort Worth men and maybe Im destined to date some more, I guess that's not so bad. I really wish I knew my love life future. Even if I end up single I think Im okay with that. I seriously think about starting a dating blog or column, about dating in the DFW area, I know guys and I know Fort Worth.
OK, so everyone pray that I don't shoot myself in the foot. Literally or Romantically.....
btw... Why the f**k can't I curse in my personal blog entry??!!