The battle with self esteem
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
I was convinced if I dropped the pounds, I would view myself so much higher than before.
Do I? Yes. Yet after losing 73 pounds it is still a struggle. I have to remind myself what I have done; 73 pounds!! Numerous 5k’s, 2nd place in a 10k, completely a half marathon, battled through knee pain followed by issues with my ankle.
I have NOTHING to regret. I have gained enormous pride and self confidence, so why do I continue to find myself looking to others to lift my self esteem?
Compliment me and I get VERY confident, then I find myself searching for the next comment to build me up again.
Compliments are great and mean absolutely the world to me! But it’s time to stop using them to strengthen my self esteem. What I have accomplished and am doing now should be ENOUGH for me.
I look better, I feel better, I am stronger, I am so much happier than I was… time to cut myself some slack and realize how beautiful I am, how much I am worth. I deserve to view myself higher than I do.
Yesterday I remembered I was given a gift certificate last Christmas for a 30 minute massage. I was down 50 pounds last year but my self esteem was still so low I couldn’t bring myself to use it.
I picked up the phone ad set up my appointment for this Friday. I have nothing to be ashamed of, no reason to hide, I deserve the “me” time and I deserve to view myself worthy of those 30 minutes.
The time is NOW. Change NOW. Eat better, eat less, get active, get stronger, let yourself be proud, build your self confidence and raise your self esteem.
What does it matter how others view you, if you don’t even value your self worth?
Rock it out guys, ‘cause you deserve it!