Friday, November 04, 2011
I'm supposed to write a blog about successes so here goes:
For the past two years I have been "getting by" with my weight loss. I will lose a few pounds then gain a few pounds...then lose a few pounds then gain a few pounds. When the scale goes up, I get comfortable with the weight and then make that my "normal" and gain a few more. I started sparkpeople at 138 with a goal of 115. I made it down to 125 then back up to 138. Now I have decided that I need to do this and need to do this for me. I can't do this for someone else, it doesn't work that way. I have to do it for a reason that motivates me. What is that reason? Is it for a contest? For a job? For security? For a man? No, it has to be for Donna and no one else. What will it take to make me believe that I am worth it? What will it take to make me say I CAN? What will it take to make me realize that my "comfortable weight" is not overweight but where I was headed when I first joined? It isn't a matter of what as much as when. Today is here, tomorrow isn't and yesterday isn't. An hour from now isn't here neither is an hour ago. The only thing that is here is now and that is what matters! I will succeed today. I will succeed now!