new home new feelings
Tuesday, November 01, 2011
I moved this weekend. After the whole Adam meltdown I needed a change of scenery. I wanted to go into witness protection and start all over. I dread seeing anyone who hadn't heard the news that we didn't move in together, I hate having to re-explain it to everyone. So anyway Ive just been wanting a whole fresh start. So I ended up moving in with one of best friends, we got a home on 5 acres, in the middle of nowhere, w/ a donkey. lol. But its very nice to be out in the country with my privacy. Plus, we are going to be doing a lot of new things to our home. Its in good condition were just wanting to update some things and make it our own. So I am very excited for this project, its gonna give me something to do with my hands and my time. And Im going to have something tangible to see my hard work develop first hand. I am very very excited yall!! Im gonna make this house so freaking awesome! We already had one party there the week before we moved in and it has amazing! The home is awesome for entertaining and that is everything I need right now. A home to hold friends and dinners and parties as well as my own private sanctuary. Anyway, the whole adam thing really took me off track for a couple of weeks, I didn't know what to do with myself for a while there. Ive finally realized I have spent a year crying over this man and Im done. im not going to let his bad decisions affect the outcome of my life. Or my emotions, or how I feel about myself. So Im climbing back on the horse and Im going to spend time with me, figure out what it is that I really want. And I am going to kick as at this plan I started before he interupted my life. Im going to get in the best shape of my life and love myself more than any man ever will. Im not doing this to get him back, don't want him, but if just happends to see me looking better than he's ever seen, well im not going to hate that either. lol. There are a few things I very much want to work on. I would appreciate soem support as well. Im getting out there again. Im not going to waste one more second of my day on things that aren't positive and productive. This week at work will be hell too, I'll be working from 8:30am till 10pm for the next 3 days. But I am getting paid well for it. Im gonna suck it up and spend this weekend and that $$ on making my new home my special place in this world.
p.s.: has anyone had to live with another person who eats extremely unhealthy?? How do you aviod their bad lifestyle and getting sucked into thier bad habits and bad snacks??!!