Tuesday, October 25, 2011
I am inspired by another Spark Team member to blog about my goals, and that means blogging about my struggles as well...so confession time.
I've been really feeling like I've slipped lately. I don't mean just one bad night in front of the tv, or even a couple bad nights...I mean like just losing momentum and having a wrong attitude towards food. Old habits are returning. I'm often eating fast, without grattitude or enjoyment of each bite. I have increased my portion sizes. I'm letting myself get really hungry and grabbing a bag or box of simple carb "food" to cram in my mouth until several servings are gone. I looked at my summary calendar to see how many days I ate within my range this month, and it's only half the time! How can I expect to lose those last pounds when I'm going over my range half the time?
So, I'm being brutally honest here as a start. I want to get that positive attitude about food back. When I started back with Spark People I was enjoying my food. I limited my treats and enjoyed them when I ate them! I also lost weight while doing so, and felt happier knowing I was not out of control with my eating. I want to be back in harmony with my body, knowing when and what it needs to eat. I really want that not just to lose weight, but for LIFE!!! I've learned so much here on SP in the last months...and there is progress, for one thing, I'm recognizing this quickly and dealing with it NOW.
I already KNOW what needs to happen to make the life-long changes I want. I think to make them happen I need to be held accountable. My Spark Friends are some of the most affirming and honest folks I know...so I'm going to post how I'm doing with my eating and attitude more regularly, maybe even every day....
Thank you so much for getting this far in my blog!!!