Accidentally Running a 5K & the Spark Warm n' Fuzzies
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
I have to say… the past twenty four hours have been one big bunch of “I’m Thankful for Sparkpeople!” moments that have left me with some warm n’ fuzzies!
First of all, today is one of those stressful hurry up and wait, firedrills, stressful work days for me. I used to treat these days with a hands up mentality and by feeding junk into my system to try to make myself cope better. I used to run to 711 and grab the biggest slurpee I could find, as well as a bag of chex mix or sunflower seeds (or both) that I could keep shoveling into my mouth to calm down. I just went to a meeting where someone brought a bag of my favorite chex mix. I watched my coworkers down the entire bag in five minutes flat and I did not allow myself one bite. Not one tiny chex. I want to have a drink later with dinner, and I have factored everything into a PLAN today, and this unexpected junk was not part of it! Turning the chex down was hard, but I did it!
My biggest “THANKS SPARK” moment happened last night. I started this “running thing” a few weeks back. It hasn’t always been peaches and cream. Some days have been better than others. Some days I dread it and some days I can’t wait to do it. Some days I am mad at my inexperience and lack of endurance/stamina, but some days, like yesterday, I am amazed at my own abilities that I didn’t know I had.
Before Spark, I would look at those people running down the street and think to myself that they were crazy. I used to almost BRAG about not being able to run. My friends used to have a joke about putting me in front of a moving train to see if I knew how to run – yes, my friends would JOKE about my complete lack of cardio exercise. I saw all of these people on Spark running and crossing finish lines. I envied them. I imagined that feeling of crossing the finish line must be amazing and now it is a feeling that I believe I might someday be able to feel for myself. I didn’t have that belief or hope for myself until Spark. I didn’t see myself accomplishing something like this (hard work, dedication, following through) until Spark.
Last night, BF and I went for a run. We tried a new route. It had some serious hills, some minor ones, some long flat stretches. We had never been to that part of our neighborhood before so we kind of just went where the wind took us. There were some parts where we paused and decided “Keep going or turn around?” and we almost always kept going. We took a few walk breaks, especially after the big hills. 35 minutes later, we were home again and I was feeling a crazy mix of things. Part of me felt so ALIVE (in fact, I kept saying to him, “I feel my blood pumping! I am ALIVE!” while we were running lol). Part of me felt like I was dying because I was sweating and breathing hard. The last bit of our run to our place is straight uphill and I was FEELING IT. Our roommate saw us come in and immediately went “Wow! You guys must have had a good run! You look like it!” Out of curiosity, I got on Spark and used the fitness maps function to see how far we ran…… 2.97 MILES. Yes, very much nearly a 5k!!!!! This was also after I walked 2 miles at lunch yesterday. My total distance for 10-18-11 was FIVE MILES.
Other people on Spark may scoff at that number, it may be old hat to them, but I am SO EXCITED and proud of myself!!!!!! The idea of a 5k is no longer super scary to me. I just did one yesterday – by accident!!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!
To make this run even better yesterday, when we got home I discovered my Spark Cookbook had arrived!!!! My first impression is that I was totally surprised by how NICE it is. It is a BIG, hardcover, well made book. I started flipping through it last night but got very sleepy (must be all the exercise) so I don’t know too much about the inside of it yet but from first glace it looks AWESOME. I can’t wait to try it out!
I am ridiculously close to a new low and to seeing a new group of numbers on the scale. I think I am going to make myself wait at least a week before weighing myself again. I have TOM to contend with and I think I should just leave it be until that winds down.
Speaking of TOM, I had a total meltdown last night over clothes. I own very few things that fit anymore and I was furiously ripping things out of my closet trying to find something to wear to work today. I was talking to a coworker/friend while tearing things apart and I told her how I’m happy but super frustrated because I look sloppy and don’t have much money to spend on new clothes. I joked with her that I needed a closet fairy to come and make clothes magically appear. Well today I wake up to an e-mail from my old roomie saying that she’s going for a major shop this weekend and clearing out her closet and wants me to get first picks FOR FREE. My old roomie is on a wonderful weightloss journey of her own and has been super successful and I know all of her stuff is my “now” size or a little smaller. She is my closet fairy!!!!!!! My fashion prayers have been answered!!!!! I told her I wanted to cry from happiness, she is my hero!!!!
Anyways, I’m just feeling good about this SPARK I have right now. I’m eating better food (and excited to try the new spark recipes!), I’m pushing myself to exercise harder/longer/farther than I ever have before, and I’m just feeling better all around. It isn’t always easy, and sometimes I struggle or slip up, but days like today remind me how rewarding this all can be. I’m still learning and surprising myself with my new skills, but this feels great! Woo hoo!!!!!!