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Cant believe Im here, again.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I've been writing exams for the past two week. I took leave off work on 29 August and have been preparing for exams since then. I decided to focus on nothing else but my school work, big mistake. Long story short, none of my clothes fit me anymore and I've'gained 12.9 kg's.

I feel terrible. I hate myself right now. When I decided to stop exercising and trying to eat healthy I did not think that it would get this bad. It seemed like the right decision at the time. I need to believe that I can still loose weight. I feel terrible. The worse thing is that this is my burden and I feel like it is too heavy for me.
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  • 4MIANDMIAMOR
    Hang in there, you can do this! Sometimes you just have to pick yourself back up and keep on pushing!

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    Kat
    3040 days ago
  • BEMORESTUBBORN
    It's okay to feel terrible and I can also understand the feeling of hating yourself - I've been there and it's not a happy place. But, to dwell on the past is paralyzing and extremely counterproductive, so stop that thinking right now! Through "failure" we learn great lessons. You now know that a sustained lifestyle of exercise and eating nutritious, portion-controlled meals will result in losing weight and feeling great. So, you're already armed with knowledge! Now, you need to focus on a plan for accomplishing your goals and that begins with your mind. No matter what happened before, it's done. Today and tomorrow are what matter and if you believe in your abilities to do the work necessary to achieve results, nothing will stop you.

    Give it your all, one day at a time, with patience and commitment. Soon, you'll see all those days add up to SUCCESS!

    Best wishes!
    3049 days ago
  • MAPHUM
    Thank goodness I wrote this blog. I feel so much better now. Thank u guys:). emoticon
    3051 days ago
  • EYES_ON_THEPRAZ
    emoticon I know how you feel as I have gained too... I think we have to find the balance in our lives - focusing on our work as well as our health and not one thing only. I know once you get back on track some of the weight will come right off. We can do this!
    3051 days ago
  • KNH771
    We all have ups and downs in this journey. I think sometimes people want this to be a straight line from A to B, but it's more like a zig zag or a maze.

    Whatever you do, don't give up. And don't beat yourself up either.

    That never helps.

    One of the wonderful things about weight loss and wellness is that we have as many "reset" buttons as we want.

    So hit the button, forget the past (can't change it anyway), and get going in the right direction again!
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    3051 days ago
  • HOLISTICJESSICA
    You can definitely still reach your goals. Take a few minutes to realize all that you have learned from this little time off and use it to your advantage. Set new goals and watch yourself succeed. It may be resetting small goals, like drinking 8 cups of water daily, or even larger ones like exercising 30 minutes a day; either way I know once you get your goals set, you will soar again.
    3051 days ago
  • JRICHARDS092907
    Girl, I am RIGHT THERE WITH YOU!! I have a 1.5 yr old and we just moved to a new state and we cant afford daycare right now so Im staying home with her instead of working. I thought "No big deal, Ill work out all the time, eat great and run around with my daughter all day and be thin in no time" Ive been out of work since april and have gained back the ten pounds i had lost. so Im starting over, AGAIN...I have a lot of health problems that make it hard to work out and I feel like Ill never lose this weight, but I think that support from good friends and people who understand your feelings are what get you through, so Im here for you! If you need a shoulder to lean on, a ear to yell in or just someone to tell how much your day blew or how hungry you might be! Good luck, I know we both can do this!! emoticon
    3051 days ago
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