Feeling really pleased!
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Have had a few naughty moments this week. I seem to remember a small piece of chocolate cake and few too many glasses of wine. I stepped on the scale this morning and am seeing the effects-as well as feeling them. I have been feeling a bit sluggish and glum the last few days. BUT, I am delighted to say that I did not at all feel guilty-for the very first time in YEARS. I think the real difference is realising that I am not dieting and am instead changing my life and that is making all the difference. In the past, if I 'cheated' I would sort of give myself permission to be naughty for an extended period of time. For instance, if I had a big breakfast, I would allow myself to have whatever I fancied for the rest of the day-and sometimes until the next week! What was worse was that I would feel miserable about it and feel an enormous amount of guilt. I felt defeated and rotten. I feel really proud that I don't at all feel that way now. Plus, I didn't go 'off the rails'. Yes, I had a piece of cake, but I made sure it was a small one. I had a few small cookies when I went to lunch with the girls, but I made sure I didn't over eat and made good choices the rest of the day. This is really big for me...and I couldn't wait to share it.