So, Step 1. for the Proving Grounds DIY Challenge... "In your blog (dundundun), post a public declaration of your independence from your own oppression...make your public declaration and update your ticker to your official challenge start weight."
I just updated my ticker to my 'official challenge starting weight'...and it really bugs me, and I'm not talking about the large number still left at the starting point...I'm talking about the fact, I just had to update my ticker and reduce my 'starting weight' from 249 to 213.6.
First, I'm upset because I've lost about 35lbs, but I don't feel like it. Not most days. I remember when I first started working at my current job, I thought I was going to die. Standing all day during field work (and that's literally all I was doing, standing and watching)...but my back and feet and legs...OMG. And the heat... I was miserable from STANDING. Now, last month I spent almost a month doing field work, and I even made a point to walk across the large work site when possible instead of driving to increase my step count for the day. So, yeah, I guess I've made a little progress. I also don't have shorts to wear for field work right now, because I've lost about two sizes and don't have any cargo shorts that fit. Again, good deal. But overall, I can't look in the mirror and see a difference. I still look big with all the rolls and lumps and bumps.
So, what's the big deal with changing my ticker? I guess on one hand I am proud of that 35lb loss and changing my ticker hides the fact I've made that progress. But to be 100% honest (and isn't that what part of this challenge is about?)...honestly, I think I've been guilty of saying and thinking "I've lost 35lbs, I've made a lot of progress"...and that has helped STALL my progress. "I'm doing great"...so I can slack off and skip a day of working out. "I'm doing great"...so one day of crazy eating won't hurt. "I'm doing great"...so what I'm doing is GOOD ENOUGH.
REALITY CHECK! The first 20lbs came off pretty easy making substitutions, cutting out most fast food, and adding SOME activity (ANY activity was better than the ZERO I was averaging at my highest weight). The last 15 lbs have been a huge bear to get rid of. More exercise, more focus on food, lose 10lbs, gain 7, lose a couple more... But REALITY CHECK! I'm still seriously lacking. I just completely spazzed out on exercising the last couple of months, and BIG reality check, my eating is still out of control. I may try to eat more veggies and eat fewer candy bars & little debbies, but I have never really done a serious dietary overhaul. Will I? Not likely in the next 6 wks. But I'm thinking tackling recording my food again might be a good start. Assess my starting point, sort of? AND, updating the stupid ticker reminds me I've still got a LONG way to go. I may have lost 35lbs, but I've still got about 50 to go. I'm still learning, and learning to DO. So, note to self...start where you are, not where you were.
I HEREBY DECLARE MY INDEPENDENCE FROM THE OPPRESSION OF MY FORMER SUCCESS. Weird. Updating the ticker starting point...who knew it could be such an eye opener?