Here's my entry form for the new Proving Grounds spark team DIY challenge.
DIY Challenge Entry Form
My Challenge Name: Down Dog Days of Summer
My Starting Weight: 212.8
Four Other things I will be measuring during this challenge & their current stats: (body measurements, race times, crunch max, jeans size, whatever YOU need to track)
1. Max girly push ups: currently 4
2. Jeans size: currently 20W are loose and 18W are tight
3. Energy level: currently 3 out of 10 (just a little experiment)
4. Stress level: currently a 12 out of 10 (again, just a little personal experiment)
If I am going to be 100% honest with myself, the reason I am doing this challenge is because:
I want to see some freaking progress. Slow and steady, blah blah, plateau, blah blah....I need the scale to move, it's been effing forever. And to be 100% honest, I'm insanely jealous of my two super skinny sisters. Same mom and dad, same genes, totally different body structures...WTF?
I feel like the reason that I have not been progressing as well as I hoped I would be is because:
Stress. A failure to plan. Bad planning. I was doing really well working out during lunch at work, but then field work picked up, and BAM...no free lunch hour = no workout. Hubby's work schedule changed so he's not home in the evenings...should be a great time to work out, but I'm letting stress and crap get to me and I just shut down when I get home. I have NO energy lately and don't feel like working out...but working out is supposed to help give you energy...stupid. (One of the reasons I'm going to try to keep track of my energy & stress levels during this challenge.)
This time, I commit to finishing my challenge because I know that:
If I don't find an outlet for my stress I'm going to end up on happy meds again or worse. And long term, I'm genetically predestined to have serious diabetic/BP/cholesterol issues if I don't get this weight thing under control.
I'm scared of:
Quicksand. One thing goes wrong. Then another... then I find my exercise, diet, mental wellbeing...it's all completely out of whack and I feel like I can't keep anything together. Biggest fear, definitely quicksand. And I'm stuck deep right now.
I want to:
Give up. Right now I feel like the last thing I really want to do is add to my plate and force exercise and tracking and healthy eating on myself (especially when I'm worried about where grocery money for Ramen is going to come from this month, let alone anything nutritious), even though I know better.
But I have faith in:
The fact my mountains are probably more like large hills that I'll figure out how to climb. And hills burn more calories than flat roads, right?
And THIS TIME, I will NOT quit, because THIS TIME:
I need this.
My top five non-health related motivations right now are:
1. my son starts kindergarten Aug 17, so more social interaction, seeing people I used to know
2. I want to be a good role model for my son, his weight is really starting to worry me lately
3. my stupid plus size swim suit
4. have I mentioned I need to work on my stress outlets?
5. my dog...poor guy needs his exercise too
The best way to motivate me is to:
Encourage me. Tell me good job. Tell me you've been there when I'm down. Maybe check on me when I go missing.
The best way I can motivate myself is to:
Plan ahead. Get out the sticker calendar (it worked pretty well before.) Journal. Blog. Share my goals/streaks. (I'm terrible about not talking about my weight loss or fitness goals with anyone because I've failed so many times before.)
My name is Kelli and I will find my balance again.