Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Its my late start work day/ late end day, which is why I am able to blog this morning. And let me tell ya, I'm fed up.
On healthy highway, I have allowed myself to become roadkill. Thats right, no one else did it but me. My own wagon ran me over and now I am roadkill!
Every day I start out with the best intentions, but allow my night time cravings turn into nighttime destruction. I cant even tell you everything I eat, but it totals a days worth! Its insane.
It all started after that horrible dressing room incident. Now, many of you have said 'dont be hard on yourself', 'im sure you look great'. But, i didnt look the way I thought or felt I did. And thats frustrating. And yes, I could cover up this summer, but ive been there, done that. I wanted this summer to be different. I wanted to be able to wear that bikini comfortably while attempting paddle boarding. And, I wanted to be able to wear shorts without worrying about them being tight when I sit down.
So, in reaction to that, I overate. I threw in the towel. I gave up and fell into the pit. Now, I am struggling to get out of the pit. I can see the light, but I can also feel the walls giving as I start my climb.
Today, is a new day. I've started it with 3/4 cup of special k cereal and added in a ton of frozen berries. I've had a cup of coffee with a splash (or a dash of milk). I've taken my vitamins, and am packing my 'healthy' lunch for work, along with extra snacks in case the night is even later than I'm expecting.
And, when I get home, and those cravings kick in, I will have my dannon light and fit yogurt, more water, brush my teeth and swish listerine. And then, I will read my book and hit the hay.
This roadkill is going to work HARD today to come back to life. To finally crawl out of the pit and get back to feeling good. I want my flat tummy back. I want to feel good in my clothes. I dont want to be scared of the scale on fridays.
I can do this. I've done it before, and will do it again. For anyone else that is in the pit or feels like roadkill, come with me today! We can do this. Together. I'm here for anyone!
Have a happy healthy day friends! I'm going to!