Too Many Responsibilities For Food To Carry!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Blog 4 for Week 4 on SP! I am asking all my SP buddies this week: What responsibilities have you unfairly given to food in your life?
I personally feel sorry for all the responsibilities I have given food over my lifetime. It is a miracle that food hasn’t had a breakdown, or at least run away and changed its name and social security number, : - ) because of all the pressure I have given it!
As a teenage runway model, I was always told by one person or another that I weighed 5-10 lbs too much no matter how much I weighed. Obviously I was thin enough to model but nevertheless I took their comments to heart and cried myself to sleep from hunger many nights. I gave food the responsibility of making me feel accepted and beautiful.
Not enough food available when I was a child or as a young adult on my own. I gave food the responsibility for making me feel secure.
Married a person who never thought I was perfect enough – I would eat one day and then not for the next three! The term anorexia was not in public use at the time but I think I was a member of that club. Looking at photos I can’t believe how thin my arms were. I gave food the responsibility of representing me as a perfect wife
By the time I was a mature adult – the place of food in my life was, needless to say, distorted. I used it when
I didn’t feel accepted, beautiful, secure, or perfect.
Gee that was a lot of responsibility for food when all food wanted to do was to nourish my body so I could be strong and healthy.
Obviously I needed to stop giving poor, abused food so many responsibilities so that we could start loving each other again.
Change is difficult. After all, why would I want to take on all these responsibilities on for myself when I had a lifetime of giving them to food? So I am slowly but surely changing one thing at a time so I don’t panic and return those responsibilities to food.
What I have discovered this past week is that we have all taken different paths to get to a place where we need SP. Once I reach my goal weight if anyone asks how I did it, I will of course recommend SP because it addresses all the area of healthy living, gives us tools, and support and is free, but I will quickly add
that becoming overweight is VERY personal and complex and everyone has to do an honest examination of one’s own life before any lasting changes can take place……it is so much more than calories in and calories out.
I believe SP addresses all these areas.
This past week, my one month anniversary:
Weight Loss: I lost 3.2 pounds for a total loss of 11.4 pounds, 37.6 until goal.
Fitness: Consistently following Beginners Walking Program (I started only after I completed a few weeks tracking nutrition on SP.) This week I am adding strength training 3 times a week. Was going to add it this week but since I couldn’t work it in I decided to wait until walking was a habit. Now it is and I am ready for strength training!
Wishing all you sweet SP people a week of discoveries and successes!!!!