Day 261: Forgiving Myself
Friday, April 22, 2011
I think most of us who are overweight are used to thinking in black and white terms when it comes to nutrition and exercise. Foods are either "good" or "bad." We are either "dieting" or "not dieting." We either exercise or don't exercise.
Ten weeks into Weight Watchers Online, I realize that I'm missing so many shades of gray. Foods aren't "good or bad" but varying values of fuel for my body. I may not walk for 30 minutes, but I take stairs more than I used to and I am trying to walk faster as I go from parking lots to buildings or walk across campus.
More than anything, I realize I am not "dieting" or "not dieting" on any given day, but I am living that day. Sometimes I'll eat more than I'd planned, sometimes I'll choose a food that I know isn't a good fuel for my body. If I'm gong to do this for the rest of my life, I can't beat myself up about those things.
In my practice, I'm forever talking to patients about forgiving themselves for past indiscretions and moving on. That bad blood pressure was in the past, and now you can take your medicine every day and make it better. The smoking was in the past, but now you've quit.
I hold myself accountable for every little step that isn't on my planned path. My goal is to forgive myself. I'm the only one who can do it.
I choose health.