Day 227: Big Cookie, Big Lessons
Friday, March 18, 2011
Knowing that I was training my research assistants today to help me on my "scholarly project" (a.k.a. Small But Hellacious Research Project That Has Taken Over My Life), I ordered gourmet cookies for a snack-break. The university catering service is very good, and they delivered on these. Gourmet is right. I'd budgeted for one cookie, my first non-low-cal "sweet" since starting WW, and had it entered on my tracker this morning, before the cookies were even baked, let alone delivered to the conference room.
I savored the cookie during our break, letting the huge melty chocolate chips linger on my tongue for as long as possible for swallowing them. It was a big, delicious, yummy cookie that reminded me of the kind I used to pig out on. Of course, then I never thought about the cookies and would just shove them in, one after the other, as if I were in a mental haze. Concentrating on this cookie was a good exercise. I enjoyed it so very much.
But three hours later, tired after a long day at work and battling crowds at the grocery store, I felt abnormally hungry. I believe the cookie spiked my blood sugar and, unfortunately, the blood sugar crashed while I tried to get out of the store with only the things on my list. Reflexively, I added four "trigger" foods, former "pigout foods" to my cart, but thankfully I came to my senses and put them back on their shelves before I checked out.
The lessons I learned? Enjoy the big cookie, but snack on something healthy before letting myself confront the mine field of a grocery store.
I choose health...one big and well-deserved cookie at a time.