Where is the anger coming from?
Thursday, February 10, 2011
The painful bouts with my shoulder come and go throughout the day. My husband walked in on me this evening in the midst of one of my low times. I was crying and gritting my teeth and cursing. I felt so much anger and I really don't know where to direct it. Of course none of it is directed toward my family. They have been very supportive. Maybe a little bit of it is directed toward myself. I wonder if I could do more to improve my situation. I still need to figure out how to improve my nutrition and introduce exercise back into my routine (that is exercise other than the physical therapy). I have got to gain control over myself as much as I can and maybe that is what this has boiled down to. The anger is toward my inability to control this process. I guess that is why I need to surrender to the process. I have physical therapy at 8:00 am tomorrow and every ounce of my being cringes at the thought yet I know it is the best thing I can do for myself.