it's almost been 2 years.....
Monday, January 03, 2011
.. since my last blog entry. I just read over it and wow, I wish I was back in that place rather than where I am right now.
Since my last blog entry I went from 194 to 178 and then slowly started gaining again. I was moving a lot, no gym and no motivation to do anything at all. Today, I sit at 220.8, which I haven't been since I started sparkpeople in August 2008. I'm determined to not get any heavier, determined to lose this weight and get healthy. I need to, I WANT TO. If not for me, for my kids sake. There is nothing more humiliating than your child telling you at the grocery store, "Mommy, your belly jiggles when you walk".... think that was my lowest point :-(
Anyway, I'm back and this time it's for real. No funny business, no empty promises, no over the top goals. All I want to do is lose the weight and get healthy. I'm not even setting my self a time limit, at least not right now. I'm going to do this slowly to begin with so I wont burn myself out. I'm also not going to do everything at once. I'm not going to stop eating and stop drinking soda and go to the gym 7 times a week. First thing I'm doing is cutting out sweets, candy if you want the correct word for it, lol. I have been for the past month eating at LEAST one candy bar of some sort a day, at LEAST ONE A DAY!!! That means sometimes I had two or even three. It was getting ridiculous during the holidays how much I ate and the scale really put me in place this morning as I stepped on it and had gained 10lbs in one month! So that is my first thing to do. AS I get more comfortable and get over my addiction to sweets I'll give up soda but for now, diet soda is my friend, my thing I go to when I get a craving.
I also signed up for the Y right before the holidays but got the flu and haven't been since sign up day since my sinuses are still bothering me. I am going tomorrow though, going to go to a body pump class at the Y.
Well that's it for now. I'm going to try to do a blog entry a day to keep up with my progress. All I know is, I'm DONE BEING THE FAT GIRL!! DONE!!!