A Message/Update to My Spark Friends
Friday, December 17, 2010
I miss you guys terribly. I never thought I would be mia this long. I hope my friends remember me. I'm updating you briefly with this blog. If you don't know me you will surely be wondering what I'm talking about. If you don't know the background forgive me as I can't give to much background or info right now. My mother moved in with me. It's been way more difficult and traumatic than even I expected. I started a new job about the same time. My grandson still isn't living with me. I honestly don't know how much more I can take. I am currently fighting illness with all I know. I want my grandson, but I'm forcing myself to be realistic. My mother is trying to get me not to work so I'm home with her all the time. She has been insulting to my husband about how I have to work. It has been really rough. We have treated her like a queen. She has seen things and done things she never thought she would get to see or do.
I have only been on SP a few minutes in the whole last month and a half. I have not had a real workout or anything. I'm in survival mode. I know people do care for a parent without all the drama I have, but I can't change my Mother or her situation. It is possible she may have to go to assisted living or something similar. I'm putting in a tremendous effort to keep her here, but she can't be insulting to my husband any more than I'd stand for him being insulting to her.
I am exhausted and fighting illness. Please forgive the rushed writing. My head feels like an explosion waiting to happen. My holidays are not going well either. I heard someone on TV say if you are feeling down this Christmas season, focus on Jesus not the holiday.
I want/need to get back on track with my life and program. Please forgive me for neglecting you for this long. It was not my intention. It just sort of happened and I am shocked at how long its been.