Monday, November 08, 2010
There are no do-overs, but fresh starts can happen in many areas of life at any time. Like when we have to do an about-face, or rethink a scenerio, or assimilate new information that seems to change everything, like the course of our lives, for instance. I was given a diagnosis last week that confirmed what I already knew to be an inoperable large abdominal hernia. The expert in his field confirmed what the first surgeon told me 10 years ago: the risks far outweighed the benefits for surgery on this massive hernia. But I kept chasing down doctors all these years because "everyone" kept telling me to "do something." Well, the expert in the field has said ,"No." Still, people may question and wonder if that is the final word on the subject, and "Why?," you may ask? BECAUSE I am overweight and that means I am an easy target for those who wish to judge, disdain, and urge me to "just lose weight." My 60 pound loss will never be enough for some folks, but the open door policy to my body must now become a MYOB [Mind Your Own Body] policy. I am through with explanations, and excuses and excuse- me- for- living apologetics, and I have to get that through my head and make it a part of me. I am the best i can be for today, and the people that love/like me don't care about the hernia, and the rest don't matter, as they say.
So yesterday I went out and had my hair done: colored, washed, cut and styled , got back in my wheelchair and went on with my life, which, by the way, I am quite happy with, w/c, hernia, and all. I am hoping to put my new photo on my Spark page as soon as I can figure out how to do it.
As for everything else, I will just continue to make lemonade and thank God for all the lemons he sends me, even the two-legged kind!! LOL