Why is my record stuck in the same spot?
Sunday, November 07, 2010
I wake up everyday telling myself today is the start of a new day. I tell myself lets stop repeating the same mistake. It's time to take back control of my food. It seems that by the time I reach about 10am my motivation has slacked off and start the same pattern of over eating. I know I am the only one who can make the change to stop this. I just can't seem to find the power inside me to make my head completely believe I am done with this compulsive unproductive behavior.
I started this slide quit a long time ago. In fact about a year and a half ago. It all started with my hip pain which I still have every time I step. It has limited my exercise and brought me down. I have tried so many avenues to get it better but still have not got the answer to stop the pain. Instead of cutting down on my food I have gone crazy with eating.
How do I pull myself out of the rut?
The one thing I did not stop doing was logging on sparks. I felt that even if I was not in the right mind to move forward on my journey there might be a spark from someone else to just push my record past the spot I am stuck in!!
It is time to stop playing the old song. Time for a new song. I just pray my head listens.