Why I AM going to succeed this time!!!
Monday, October 11, 2010
I have been a member here since Jan 2008 but I haven't been successful. Oh don't get me wrong I have lost weight (then gained it back) and I thought I GOT the program but then I would get discouraged, depressed, loose momentum, loose confidence and unfortunately fail. I have taken a long time off... way too long.... sunk into a deep hole where I didn't care about anything. One day I realized I was in a really scary place and I didn't want to be there anymore. I started thinking about why I failed.... what I did wrong and what I have to do to SUCCEED. One of the things I did wrong was start off small, which was a good thing but once I lost a few pounds I would add more and more things..... I got impatient.... I saw other people doing more than me or better than me so I kept putting more and more unreasonable demands on myself. I was a slave to the scale.... there it was everyday starring at me, daring me to climb on. I was trying to totally change my eating habits in 1 day.... in other words I was doing most things wrong. Last month I decided to focus on 1 thing so I decided I would only focus on exercise. I would ride my exercise bike 2 times a week and walk 2 times a week. While I am on my bike I have been reading my Spark book (the one that had been collecting dust) and I read about me on so many of the pages, unfortunately most of those were the wrong way to do things. I learned that it is ok to start off small, that I shouldn't change everything at once, and not let the scale control my life. Everything is falling into place and making sense. I am starting over with a clean slate. I weighed on day 1, took my measurements, and climbed on the bike. I give myself a pep talk everyday. I do weigh every week just out of curiousity on how I am doing. I don't dwell on what the scale says. I focus on my success at exercising.... and I am proud to say I AM SUCCESSFUL at meeting my goal. I redid my weight goals and actually looked to see when I should meet those weight goals. I broke them into smaller goals since I have a long way to go. Right now my ticker is set for 10 pounds at a time, that way I won't feel so overwhelmed and I can see how much I have lost instead of how far I have to go. I will probable change that once I meet my 1st major milestone which is to be under 200 pounds (Jan 30, 2011) I know that focusing on exercise will make it easier to add other areas. I mean who wants to eat junk food when you have just sweated your butt off riding the bike. Another small change I have made is to replace 1 unhealthy snack for a fruit/veggie. I was constantly grabbing cookies or chips.... today I almost fell over when I realized I only had 1 chocolate mint cookie. So these small changes ARE working and I AM going to be SUCCESSFUL! I am excited, I have more energy, and I feel so much better overall..... THIS is how I want to continue to live my life... I beat breast cancer 11 yrs ago and I am going to beat being obese too!!!