Pissed off but I got my motivation back!!
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Ok so tonight I decided I was gonna watch Sons of Anarchy, when I went to the Channel that the show was pose to be on and they done chanced my stations on my tv. I used to get FX and now all of a sudden I don't get it? I was PISSED and still am. I have heard nothing but good things about this show and I really wanted to see it tonight. But no Dish Network decided it didn't want me to see it tonight. So yeah I'm pissed. And I heard it was a good one too. So I sat and watched the last hour of Ever After instead.
I did get to watch The Biggest Loser tonight. I'm glad I did I needed the Motivation. I did get kind of pissed with a couple of the ladies on there though. The 58 year old woman that I talked about last week that was there said that she was wanting to go home. Then another girl said she wanted to go home so she could help her friend out that went home last week. I got PISSED. There are thousands of people who ARE at home and only wished that they were on the show. I for one wish that I could be on that show. If you get on that show then you are lucky!!! Very lucky cause not everyone gets to be on that show. And I would love to be on that show so that I could learn a whole more then I can at home. And for them two ladies to sit there and say they wanted to go home, just floored me cause they were taking the The Biggest Loser house for granted and really didn't want to be there in the first place. If you didn't want to be there in the first place then why try out for the show? Is it because you didn't really want to change your lifestyle or eating habits?? Or is it because your just ready yet??? Well whatever the case was or is you shouldn't of tried out for the show in the First place, you shouldn't of give it your all when you tried out in the first!! I would give anything to be on that show! I've always wanted to meet Bob and Jillian in person. And I don't see me getting that chance right now. They are the lucky ones, they have everything at their finger tips to help them lose weight, while me and alot of other people on this journey are stuggling at home trying to lose weight. It just doesn't make sense to me! I don't get why anybody that goes on that show would sit there and take that house for granted and not want to be there. When you have me and a lot of other people that would really really like to be there. I would love to wake up in the biggest loser house and know why I'm there and I would be proud!! But I will have to make due while doing this home like thousands of other people trying to lose weight! This is a hard struggle, no one said it would be easy. But I work my butt off and feel like I'm getting no where because I know what I'm doing wrong and I'm working hard to fix it. And it just breaks my heart that people who go on that show they do one workout, and see that they have lost weight then they turn their back on it and want to quit? WHY??? Yes I will admit that I have lost weight and I was proud of that then I said to myself whats the use??? I'm gonna be fat forever! Then I immediately turned it back around and got back to it. But to get the chance of a life time to go on a show as big as the biggest loser and want to give up after a week is beyond me. I admire those ones that have gotten as far as they have, that have gotten to their goal weight and it took them months and months and maybe even years to get there but they never really gave up trying. I know of atleast 4 people who have done this and they are very happy and they still today continue the fight of losing weight and keeping it off. And they work their butts still to stay healthy. That makes me want to workout and get down to that same level of success. Only I can get myself down to that. No one else will do it for me. I want this more then anything. I don't want to see someone going through what I'm going through then just give up after a 2 weeks. That makes me think what hope to I have left? The answer is, is that I DO have A LOT of hope left. It may take me a year maybe 2 to get to where I want to be. And I don't care how long it may take I WILL get to where I want to be and I will not give up my fight to lose weight!! That being said I did get my motivation back from the show and I will apply it this week!!