Has anyone noticed that I have been resembling a snarling grizzly bear lately?
I just wasn't sure exactly why. Sure, I didn't like that my friendship was fading away. Sure, I have three intense tests this week. Sure, I have a busy schedule. I have experienced all of things before. They have never made me crabby, mopey, and tearful. I was thinking maybe my depression was back.. crying for no reason was a sign of that.
Last night people would ask me what was wrong but I couldn't tell them. I think mainly because I didn't know and I didn't want to think about it.
I kinda figured it out when I was venting to a friend online.. and almost instantly I was in a better mood.
Basically, in the last few days, I have gone through the following:
I got lost.
Got in a bad mood because of friend lack of response.
Zumba sucked. I am not burning calories like I should be!
Felt uncoordinated in Zumba.
Felt uncoordinated in Self Defense.
Partnered with a girl that was not enthusiantic about class.
Same girl kinda made me feel like it was MY fault that we weren't doing the moves right. (It's a team effort!!!)
A friend leaning onto for support and kinda giving me her stress.
Oversleeping in the morning so no workouts like I want.
A hang over from drinking. (I didn't want to feel emotions.)
So, tomorrow is Thursday and am totally ready to have a GREAT day. Here is the plan!
Get up and eat breakfast for Test 1 at 9 am. Study for Test 2. Take Test 2 at 11 am. Work out all any emotion I have until I am exhausted. I am aiming for 60 minutes on the elliptical, and RUNNING! I figure by than.. endorphins should be racing. Than, homework.. until I work at 3. After work, hopefully, go rock climbing. I seriously need this so I can be this again.