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Sometimes.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Sometimes you don't want to care. Sometimes you don't want to feel. Sometimes you don't want to deal with problems. But you have to. I guess this is called being an adult.

I don't want to care that I have no meaningful relationships in my life. I don't want to care that everytime that I try to make a meaningful, lasting relationship, it falls apart or fades away a few months later.

I don't want to feel the hurt of being alone and having people that do not care. Oh, people say they care.. when I scream give me attention. But, on an everyday series, they don't. Or at least they don't show it. What is the point of caring if you don't show it?

I don't want to have problems. I don't want to have depression where if I don't constantly have solid friendships, my stress levels go up which increases my depression sessions. I don't want to have apraxia which gives me all kind of issues.. still. Like the last few days, I have felt so uncoordinated. In self defense, I felt my partner, someone else I usually don't have, blamed me for us messing up.

So, many things have sucked in the last few days.. so today.. I don't care about calories. I don't care about exercise. I don't want to care about it anymore. So, for one day I won't. I will just care about me and what I want.
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  • SNOWFILLY
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    3527 days ago
  • PIINKCUPCAKE
    emoticon Oh Man...... I hope this passes and u feel better soon. I have these days when, even though I have someone in my life who is patient and understanding, I still feel alone and I dont want to care about any of the things that consume my time all day everyday... working out and tracking food included!
    Sending u soooooooooo many Hugs. Wanna hear about u running soon mKay! xxoxo PIINK
    3528 days ago
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    Ahhh! We all have those days, you are human! Exercise and a healthy lifestyle is something you have worked so hard for. You are a superstar with it! Don't look at it as being a negative, it's a positive. Don't give up on something that has really brought you so much happiness. It's just one of those days. Give yourself a little treat today, a pedicure? a new outfit? a good book? Whatever would make you feel a little less bummed! Or go for that run, and feel strong and relieve stress. People care, they do. Life can just be crazy sometimes, and people get caught up in their own "issues". I wish you better days, YOU DESERVE IT GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    3528 days ago
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