Monday, September 27, 2010
So it's been an interesting couple of weeks. And I'm not going to rehash them. I am just going to say that I got on the scale last week and really looked at what it read and actually thought about it. You know how that creep starts, a pound, two pounds...and before you know it, you've gained a whole lot of weight? Well, in my interest to NOT live by the scale, I ignored it when I did step on it, and not so suddenly (but in my head it's suddenly, because I gave myself permission to really think about what it was saying) it's up, way up.
So first, I'm going to take that "I don't want to get too bogged down by worrying about the scale" excuse and throw it out the window. To be fair to myself, that was a fairly valid statement quite a while back, but has long since ceased being a true concern. All it did, once I turned off that vigilant attitude, was give me a reason to ignore the cold, hard reality of that scale. So now it is gone.
Second, I have recorded my weight for THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A YEAR. It's not pretty, but it's real, and that's that.
Third, I am not going to beat myself up, as between bouts of stuffing my face, that's what I've been doing, and when I ask myself "so how's that been working out for you?" the answer is, of course, it hasn't.
Fourth, because I have this inner need to keep every record of everything I've ever recorded (must be the City Clerk in me, this need to preserve anything), I have not completely re-set my goals, but I have adjusted them within the framework of Spark.
And fifth, I am starting over. It is as simple as that. Truth be told, I actually began this last week, as I lost 2 lbs from last Monday to this Monday. Was it a perfect week? Heck no, but it was a whole lot better than the week before. Baby steps, Tina, baby steps..
and so it begins..