I had a distorted view of myself
Thursday, September 16, 2010
When I was skinny; I always saw what others told me; that I was fat. I listened to those voices even after I hadn't seen their faces for years. I got rid of those voices but only through giving this over to Jesus Christ & not taking it back again in November. Now I can never do this journey w/ out Him guiding me & being w/ me every step of the way.
I went to the ER on Sunday I have Vertigo ; they told me after running some test. I have this going on this week & the Dr. Prescribe an antihistamine. I told the E.R. that I had taken an antihistamine for my allergies 16 hours before hand & that I always take 1. So, I was loopy after this new one kicked in. My hubby as wonderful as he is did not know that I went b/c he was in Milwaukee & I was in Shawano; Some 3 hrs. away. My buddy & best pal was w/ me & she said,"Don't you think I should call Mike? Wouldn't you want to know if he was in the ER???"
The Lord guided me through this even though I was out of it. I said,"You don't understand. He would want to come here. He would not listen to reason. He would not care if the car made it here or not. He very determine & very bull headed."
I love the fact that he wants to protect me & all but I'm glad that the Lord had us so far apart. This happened on Sunday on the way back from the annual Women's retreat. It was all over by noon. This didn't happen until 1ish. That is definitely is a "God thing".
Now some would claim healing (as I do) but I claim the Lord's will not mine. I certainly can not see the big picture as only God can. I want this vertigo to glorify God, not me. If the Lord of heaven & earth will give me healing than that's awesome & if He doesn't that's awesome also.
The Lord is in control & the sooner we all realize this the better off we'll be. I'm sorry if some don't agree but you don't have to but 1 day we'll all stand before Him & get judge for the things we did & did not follow Him. I'm not preaching.
Thanlk you for reading. Hope all is well,