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I had a distorted view of myself

Thursday, September 16, 2010

When I was skinny; I always saw what others told me; that I was fat. I listened to those voices even after I hadn't seen their faces for years. I got rid of those voices but only through giving this over to Jesus Christ & not taking it back again in November. Now I can never do this journey w/ out Him guiding me & being w/ me every step of the way.

I went to the ER on Sunday I have Vertigo ; they told me after running some test. I have this going on this week & the Dr. Prescribe an antihistamine. I told the E.R. that I had taken an antihistamine for my allergies 16 hours before hand & that I always take 1. So, I was loopy after this new one kicked in. My hubby as wonderful as he is did not know that I went b/c he was in Milwaukee & I was in Shawano; Some 3 hrs. away. My buddy & best pal was w/ me & she said,"Don't you think I should call Mike? Wouldn't you want to know if he was in the ER???"

The Lord guided me through this even though I was out of it. I said,"You don't understand. He would want to come here. He would not listen to reason. He would not care if the car made it here or not. He very determine & very bull headed."

I love the fact that he wants to protect me & all but I'm glad that the Lord had us so far apart. This happened on Sunday on the way back from the annual Women's retreat. It was all over by noon. This didn't happen until 1ish. That is definitely is a "God thing".

Now some would claim healing (as I do) but I claim the Lord's will not mine. I certainly can not see the big picture as only God can. I want this vertigo to glorify God, not me. If the Lord of heaven & earth will give me healing than that's awesome & if He doesn't that's awesome also.

The Lord is in control & the sooner we all realize this the better off we'll be. I'm sorry if some don't agree but you don't have to but 1 day we'll all stand before Him & get judge for the things we did & did not follow Him. I'm not preaching.

Thanlk you for reading. Hope all is well,

Laura
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  • KITTYF54
    It's good to read your blog and your assertion that it's all in the Lord's hands. good for you. I'll be praying, Love, Kitty
    3598 days ago
  • ALIBROM
    I hope and pray you get better from the vertigo. I hope it is the Lord's will to heal you of this. Your hubby sounds like such a nice person to care about you so much. It is so good that your friend was there to help you through this. What you say at the end of your post is the truth!
    3609 days ago
  • SUNNYARIZONA
    I had a very bad injury while hiking in Dec. last year, and later realized it was vertigo. At least the Dr. said so. Nothing was done to diagnosis WHY? Knowing I have this problem, is helpful, in treating it. Glad you are ok!
    3617 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4519295
    I had vertigo a few years ago. It is a horrible feeling. I did eventually get over it. I also believe that the Lord can heal you of the vertigo if that is His will, just like you said. Yes, the Lord is in control all of the time. Sometimes we miss His best because we go the way He'd not want us to go.
    Continue to proclaim the truth and way of the Lord. Preach on!
    3617 days ago
  • CMJONES77065
    I pray you continue to depend totally on Jesus and indeed see yourself as He sees you, through eyes of love.
    3617 days ago
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