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THAT'S ME!?!??

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

This week I realized something... there is more to restarting my life then just a new job and new city (which if you are keeping track, neither has happened!). While look at some old pictures I realized... WOW I have gained A LOT of weight. Now, I wasn't going to say anything... I am a firm believer that when you tell people you are on a diet they will tell you "you look great" or "have you lost weight" regardless on if they actually feel that way.... they are just saying that to be nice. So, I tend not to tell people when I'm trying... and felt I would do the same here. But... nearing a point I never in a million years thought I would reach... it's time to do something. Seriously, look at this picture... the one on the left is from 2004, shortly after my college my old roomie got married... this was at her wedding. The one on the right... last month... yeah... 6 years and about 60 pounds. That's not right.



So why am I sharing my embarrassing pictures with the world wide web? Because... I am also using it as a way to keep up motivation. I need to walk more and eat less... drink more water and spend some time not in front of the computer... and I will need people to not tell me I look great, but to tell me that it's good I'm getting out there, etc.

Now, it wasn't easy putting on this weight, and I know it will be less easy taking it off.

I have never been "thin" I have always been over weight, but never to the point that I was... well kinda grossed out by my body. And the weight went on slowly, and I was NEVER short and excuse. It was a combination of working long hours, working overnights, stopping at McDonalds once a week for dinner, eating everything off my plate, not exercising... then it got worse when I got in a relationship with an AMAZING guy who loves me no matter what... which is great... except when you stop worrying about not pigging out in front of him. And I have confidence in myself, a lot more then I did in 2004. It's weird that while I'm bigger, I feel better about ME, I no longer cry in the dressing room at the mall... but I also can only shop in ONE store. Not good!! I long for the days when I could shop anywhere, and have guys look at me... and no in that "should she be eating that" kind of way.

So here is what I am asking from you... to hold me accountable, to support and love me... but to not let me eat 3 slices of pizza and ice cream in front of you! I'm going to start with little things, but I'm hoping I can ask for a whole new wardrobe for Christmas... or at least smaller jeans.
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  • STARPLANET2000
    I'm starting with small steps too and my small steps have led to 7lb loss since starting just over 3 weeks ago. Track your food, log in and visit other peoples blogs, read articles, drink water, try to move a little. My next step is to increase the moving thing! You can do this girlie!
    3816 days ago
  • NIC582
    Aww, thanks guys!!! I have found the community here is WONDERFUL!!!!! And some of your stories make me really feel it is possible!!!!
    3816 days ago
  • LIL-VIXEN
    Welcome to Sparkpeople. By joining this community shows that you are totally serious about your new lifestyle. There is a time in everyones life that they will have a make a change for the better and you have made that decision. You will succeed here because there are people on the same journey that you are on. Everyone here is in your corner and will do whatever necessary in order to keep you motivated.

    Good luck to you on your lifestyle change journey.
    3816 days ago
  • LIBBYL1
    Looking forward to seeing the next photos charting your loss of inches - and you in those new jeans! Make it a rule - if you are going to eat that pizza and icecream you have to do it in front of others!
    3816 days ago
  • JENLIND
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    Welcome to Sparkpeople! Your decision to become healthier and fitter is wonderful and you found the best site to assist you in achieving your goals. The three things that help me the most are: 1) making sure I drink 8-10 glasses of water a day 2) tracking my food intake religiously and 3) walking.

    Good luck to you!
    3816 days ago
  • NICSTERSPARK
    I totally know what you mean. And yes it is good to be held accountable!! Its so easy to stick your head in the sand, and just deny everything espcially when you have a boyfriend that loves you unconditionally!! So good luck!!!!!!!!!!!
    3816 days ago
  • LADY_KATHY
    Best wishes on your healthy journey. Take things slow and steady, changing one thing at a time so you don't feel overwhelmed... make them habits.... to last a lifetime. : )

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