conquering the burrito

There's this amazing burrito place in west covina, CA. It's a tiny little shack a mile or two off the freeway (I wont say where or what it's called because it's ADDICTING). It has, by far, the best burritos I've ever eaten, easily. I don't know what makes them so amazing. Maybe it's the ratios of what they put in or the quality of meat itself or maybe the sauce...but I heard about this place a few months ago and every time I'm in the area and get the chance I've gone there.

EXCEPT YESTERDAY

Yesterday I ate pretty well all day. Oatmeal for breakfast. Plumb and trail mix for a snack. sandwich for lunch. chicken and veggies for dinner. It was a really bad day too (but I packed my lunch the night before so that decision wasn't an issue =) )...I was EXHAUSTED from life. I even FELT pale. I'm not use to this 7AM everyday work thing after going to sleep at 4 AM most days of Spring quarter... 40 hours/week plus working out and dancing almost every day and suddenly decreasing the amount of food I eat is taking a toll definitely. On Tuesdays and Thursday nights I usually take 3 dance classes in West Covina. Yesterday I was so tired that I decided ahead of time to only take 1 class from my favorite choreographer instead of 3 and just to home early and chill......AND MAYBE GET THAT AMAZING BURRITO ON THE WAY HOME. I was really excited. I think the thing that got me to actually go to class was prospect of that burrito. As I was driving there...I started thinking..why do I want the burrito. Will it make me happy? That answer was clear: YES. But then I thought.....for how long? Wow. I had never thought that much about it before. Usually it's a yes or no, do I really want it or not. That's when it hit me...temporary happiness...is what I would get from that burrito. I didn't want it THAT badly and I knew it would make me go over in calories so it would make me kind of sad too. So I decided not to get the epic burrito. Instead of getting on after class I just got straight on the freeway and went home. Well..I stopped by baskin robins. But I knew i wanted that one because I had been craving ice cream for a week. We had a lot at home that I haven't touched. i contemplated just eating that ice cream but it wasn't my favorite and I was afraid I'd still want more after a scoop. So I stopped off, got my favorite flavor from my favorite ice cream shop, and enjoyed every bite. And i'm still happy about it today haha. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have been happy about my burrito. It's probably 1000 calories...but the ice cream was ~250! So I stayed under 1500 calories today ! My listed goal is 1400. It use to be 1550 or something but I would never hit it so I decided to play mind games with myself and make it 1400 so I'd at least hit 1550 =) part of the battle is just knowing yourself.

TAKE THAT BURRITO




I had planned a week ago to get one on the 6th anyways because I have a work event a block away. But then i can plan for it better =) I'll try and eat extremely extremly well that whole week because I know it's coming.

And for one of the same reasons I got the ice cream...losing weight isn't about stopping life for a while and then starting it again when the weight's gone. I think that's where I messed up last time. I have to learn to work in the bad things that I LOVE (not just like, but love) into my diet to be healthy but not go insane.

Good times.
K back to work.