Desperation v Hope
Thursday, July 08, 2010
I just started again and I just can't see myself as skinny nor as taking this journey. I know it is right for my overall health, but it is so foreign and painful. I just started and I'm already cheating with trail mix and chocolate chips.
Why can't I keep myself quiet about my journey and not need the approval of others. Is it support I want or recognition for appearing to be bettering myself.
What is my motivation? Who is my support and why?
What is this all about? I don't know and I don't think I will ever know.