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It's time for a change.

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

This is my introduction on my page, but I wanted to blog it as well. Maybe someone who needs to see it will. Maybe it will help someone.

Here I go yet again...and again....and again. I have lost this weight before. I have gained it all back. Plus more, each and every time. I have reached the point where it's my health more than my appearance I worry about, but that doesn't mean I don't want to look good.

I am forty eight, I have 3 wonderful boys. Ages 28, 22, and 20. I have been blessed with two adorable grandsons, and a granddaughter, due at the beginning of September. I don't want to be hiding from the camera ...
Here I go yet again...and again....and again. I have lost this weight before. I have gained it all back. Plus more, each and every time. I have reached the point where it's my health more than my appearance I worry about, but that doesn't mean I don't want to look good.

I am forty eight, I have 3 wonderful boys. Ages 28, 22, and 20. I have been blessed with two adorable grandsons, and a granddaughter, due at the beginning of September. I don't want to be hiding from the camera anymore. I want to be in those pictures, and not sickened by what I see.

I have "disappeared" from family photos. What memories am I leaving behind? Memories of a Mom and Grandma that hides from the camera? Things have to change. They will change. I don't like what I see in the mirror, but at least now, I can begin to move forward. I know I am doing something positive for me. This is for my health. It's for my life. Looking good will be a wonderful BONUS, but not the most important part.

This is my third go round at SparkPeople. The site works, it's fantastic. I'm the one who didn't follow through. My SparkFriends have always been here for me, no matter what. They have continually reached out to me, even when I wasn't active on SP. I am one of the many who have been blessed because SparkPeople exists. There is no amount of money that can buy the support system available from this caring, giving, community. This totally FREE site offers all of the support anyone needs, plus such a wide array of tools and learning opportunites. It is truly amazing!!! It is here just for the taking!!! You better believe, I'm taking it!!!

I am going to do my best to hang on this time, no matter what roads life may take me down. This time I KNOW I will succeed. My plan is to not only learn how to eat healthy, but to put it into practice, and keep it there. No more "dieting" for me. Healthy eating, healthy lifestyle. Exercise will become a permanent change, not a temporary fix. I plan on using the fitness plan that SparkPeople so generously provides, and I will stick to it this time.

I have to make these changes if I want to live my life. As it is, I haven't really been living for a long time. I have been so down and discouraged. What kind of life is it when you don't want to go anywhere? When you are embarrassed instead of happy when you run into an old friend? When you never want to be in the family photos? When you KNOW everyone is staring at you in the checkout line at the grocery, and it's not your imagination? That is no kind of life at all.

All of that is changing. I feel good knowing I am making the right decisions for my health. It is rubbing off on my husband whether he likes it or not. I will not set myself up for failure by cooking unhealthy meals all the time. Yes, he can still have his favorites. So can I. Just not every day. There is room in a healthy diet and lifestyle for the occasional splurge. Occasional being the key word...lol.
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  • ITSGOT-TOGO
    emoticon Mary. We will do it together this time emoticon I have gained and lost and gained and have not made time for me and for Spark people. We will do this Mary.......... emoticon
    Your friend Jayne
    3929 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/9/2010 12:17:04 PM
  • NEWYEARME
    I have been down this road many times myself. I have had a weight problem all my life and it has consumed me. I have not been living for a long time.

    I have found that things are different since I have been on Spark People. I have times when my motivation wains, but if I get on the site and look around at the motivational pages, read some articles and blogs, then I am ready to go again.

    The thing that I have found that is helping this time is that I am looking at it as a lifestyle change, not a diet. You can't diet all your life. It seems that I have been doing that and it certainly doesn't work. The key is to work more activity into your life and eat healthy. And, when you need support, just reach out to your Spark Friends. That's what we are here for.

    And remember... No one is perfect. Every journey starts with one step but, eventually, you reach your destination.

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    3931 days ago
  • WISHINTOLOSE
    this is the first time I have ever left a message so I don't know if I am doing this right. But I just wanted to tell you that you have touched my life. When I read this it was like I was talking to myself in the mirror. We just had family pictures done and I didn't want to be in them. What is up with that. My kids have no pictures of them and there mom. I hate feeling absolutely huge in pictures. Anyways I just wanted to let you know you touched my life. I don't remember much about sparks because I was going through health issues when I found this site originally. But now I am better and look into it again. thank you Bon emoticon
    3931 days ago
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